Why I’m a triplet sadly but others think it is a miracle and I hate it since I’m a triplet I mostly have to share everything that I have like my clothes, food, and a bunch of other stuff. Since I’m also the youngest of the three. The oldest (we are all sisters) likes to trample all over me, call me names, ignore me, and treat me like I’m trash all the time and it is starting to get to me. I have tried to do everything so that her word swords don’t reach my heart like trying to change my personality, who my friends are, and my grades. But since I have run out of ideas to stop them they got to me and nobody’s trying to stop it like my parents say “Stop it” or “This is the last time, you have to stop saying that to your sister!” But they don’t do any more than that. The sad part, not even my other sister tries to stop it from happening, she just watches like how I would watch a movie, it honestly gets creepy…
It is not even my oldest sister who does this to me but also the middle sister, even though she is not as tough as the oldest one she can be cruel sometimes like she doesn’t even care about me living. One experience I have with this is that one day I was sadly not the best in math and so I got probably the lowest score someone can get on anything and I told my sister crying to her, but you know what she says “I won’t tell mom or dad if you stop acting like a rat, your getting snot on my bed get off and go jump or something that does not have something to do with me”. It was probably the worst thing anybody has said to me in the years I have lived. She is chill we hang out like similar things but we just can’t compromise with each other (could someone recommend how we could compromise more easily).
One thing that has taken the most toll on me is that my other two sisters get all these cool talents like the oldest one are brainy and quick-witted and the middle one is artsy and has a lot of friends. While the only thing people say to me is that I work hard in school and put effort into everything I do. Yes, being hardworking is a wonderful asset to have in life but for me, it has a lot of cons because I’m constantly working on the homework to trying just to organize my feelings and thoughts in check. I feel like I’m always behind them in everything I do either that’s grades or talents in other things. When it was my birthday and I got cards from my family my sisters said something different every single time but when I look back at my cards they are all about how I’m hardworking and I should keep it up and I will get far in life, I like the compliments but… it makes me feel space taking like I’m useless and I will never amount to anything the other two will be in life. It makes me depressed all the time. I might be selfish but I feel like that’s the only thing people think about me and I’m always craving more and I do immature things like spending money on games to make my friends laugh and call me crazy and adventurous. So I might get attention from them. I know I am selfish, I have an ugly personality, I’m an annoying self-attention searcher and an ungrateful brat. But in the back of my head, I just want to notice that I have more than just one quality than hardworking.
I know most people won’t see this and might think I’m just whining and I need to grow up when they see this, but I just don’t know what to do anymore… My dad’s side of my family is suffocating me and my sisters are pulling me down more and more till I lose all hope. But I don’t want to be the failure triplet and then get pushed aside like I’m just a waste of space. At this point, I want to end myself and put an end to this but I’m too scared to die. I don’t know what to do with my life.
i’m sorry to hear what you going through but ending yourself is not a option and you cant achieve anything out of it, like you said you spend on games and make friends just do it, do what makes you happy even when you are low just go and play so you may get some relaxation,when your grades are low just go to your dad and speak openly that i tried my best yet i failed please help me to do something about this communocation is the key and when your sisters push you down do not keep yourself low prove that they are wrong ,you have to bounce back not in a harsh way but dela smoothly,evryone have/had this phase in life this is just a passing cloud,thi too shall move on,please never ever have the thought of ending your life you get nothing out of it.
Reach me anytime,i’ll be here for you, my answer may be late but ill be there.
Thank you sooo much this has helped me because the other day I get a devastating grade on a test and I cried in class when I figured it out and I cried more in the bathroom but after that, I had history and got another bad grade and when I got home I took your advice and just played my games for an hour and I felt much better.
That’s my hero, Keep rocking you’ll nail it.
I can totally get what you are going through I have a sibling who is 4 years older than me and the things you mentioned literally happened with me growing up and it still happen even when I’m 19 now, I have been constantly gas lighted all my life and I know how it feels to be like this I was a really good and smart kid growing up never did I tried to do anything that would have hurted me but he has said so terrible poisonous things that even recalling those things hurt like hell my dad loves me but he has done fee things wrong that as if he has no right to say anything to him or like he is not even in house most of the time and ny mother is toxic she has never cared about me and never told him to stop being mentally abusive,I Don’t have any piece of advice for you cause I’m suffering through the same but I think as you said you are hurt hardworking that single thing can change your life so stay strong and pls love yourself as nobody else is loving us.
I feel you, my dad is very toxic and now since my parents have been divorced I mom just will not help all she does is “You have to learn how to stand up for yourself!” But if I tell my dad what I’m thinking about his political shit he will dump it on the side of the curb. And know me and my dad are very distinct towards each other but through the past years, I have tried to talk with him he will not listen AT ALL. But that’s his problem because not he only has 2 daughters.
