Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

why do I always get forced by my parents why! ? is it because I’m a girl or because I’m younger than my brother my brother always always get everything they love him so much ik they love me also but this isn’t the love I want I always get forced to do things like yesterday I didn’t really wanted to go but had to cuz they forced me to go with them and ended up crying for happiness but why I don’t wanna live with this forceful life if my parents itself don’t understand who ll understand me I don’t wanna live this stupid life I wish I was dead
what should I do
if compare with my brother he ll make somethings up and make me get scoldings and end up getting forced!
or in other way also my bro comes and make me scold he always got advantage cuz he is a boy and elder than me what should I do!!??