When I was 5 years old or 6 years old, I had this huuuge liking for this cute little girl in my class. I was too little to understand what it was. But we studied in the same school and even when I turned 14 I still liked her but I was too shy to tell her that knowing that she’d never like someone like me. I don’t know why I ever felt that. Then we joined the same college and I, being bloody fool got into a relationship with her friend who was in the same class right in front of her and messed up that relationship pretty big and this girl that I had a biiig biig crush on, saw how bad I was without even seeing how good I am. After the relationship ended, I turned completely self-destructive and drank and got high for 6 years straight with gaps of few days in between. I distanced myself from everybody and everything and now I’m fucking 5 days sober I’m just sitting everyday and fucking wondering how much I fucked up. I could’ve had it all and my self-destructive tendencies made me fuck up everything. Fate played a shitty game with me and I couldn’t notice anything when it was happening. Now, I just wish I could get to talk to her again just once, I wish fate is kind to me once, I pray I get her to be a part of my life one last time and this time I wish I don’t mess up.
cheer up bro… if you really really want her then don’t wait for fate to give you a chance… just go and make one. All the best.
Thanks man ! I will try my best.
