When I opened his insta without his notice I found he's cheating on me which he isn't feeling guilt... He's completely fine he's isn't bothered about this relationship but y am I the only one who is struggling..... I feel so anxious when my mind strikes with a thought that he's no more interested in me and he's ok letting me go 😣.... I love him so much but I don't want him..... I want to move on I'm trying but I feel pain.😣.... I feel something crushing my heart..... Any suggestions to reduce the pain.... I just don't want to care at all... He lost me but it's hurting me.... I really wanted to forget everything, this pain, those memories every single thing

Move on. That's the only thing. Not necessarily moving on with any other person, but moving on with your life and creating the life you want. Rather than placing your happiness and peace in some douchebags.

Anxiety

I am feeling alone and lost all, i am in relationship past 10 years, we were too good upto 2019. He faces many difficulties in business, he got all failures, financial problems and family is not supporting him. In the same situation my parents are asking to get married but parents are not aware of my relationship. They are forcing me too choose guy and i spoken to my partner also he saying to wait but he is not talking , texting me. He is not sharing anything to me, I feel he doesn’t have any feelings towards me anymore. I am in depression rightnow. I am unable to come out from this situations.

Depression

Hii! So i am an advocate, 23 years old. Just completed my graduation few months ago. I am preparing for masters. I am in love with someone. We have been together for almost 3 years now, a simple fairy tale it has been. We two are pretty serious and think of future together. Point is that i am an ambitious person, but i ain't able to focus on my career thinking and worrying about how we are gonna convince our families. My partner although is a very positive chill individual, ready for whatever comes. Since last 3 years i've been severely burdened by the fact that no one in my family knows about my relationship, although we were planning to tell them in the coming years. I live in a typical joint family, and they have been receiving Rishtas or marriage proposals for me (for an Arranged marriage). I had no clue that they themselves have been looking for guys as yesterday my father approached me and out of no where started discussing about one of the proposals that my relatives have been approaching us about. I strictly said No. Being shock driven by all this, i decided to confront my mother about my relationship and how we are planning to marry, just had'nt thought everything to be this soon. My mother and sister in law handled the whole thing with immense positivity. But as i wasn't prepared for all of this to happen so soon, i am facing panic attacks, i have completely lost my appetite due to stress, and no sleep. Why is it so difficult for an indian girl to discuss something so crucial with her family or parents? Why are we so trapped in the baggage of patriarchy so much that women's opinion don't matter so much? Anyone with words of wise  please help me here. I need it. 

Marriage

I feel like I wanna throw up, bf broke up with me he said he doesn’t like me anymore. I feel like I can’t move my body parts cause how weak I feel I also feel like I can’t breath. I’m so tired, he acted like both was wrong he was joking with me he was holding my hand. And then after school he just texts me saying he wants to break up. I cried and he was the only guy I ever cried for when it came to a break up. I also found out a lil later that my friend loves me but he has a gf. I have mix feelings going on rn. My head hurts so much I’m not going to school tomorrow 

Breakup

I really need an opinion on this- 
I have a online friend, a guy. We started talking three months ago, and became good friends. He's a private person and i know basically everything about him. So like few days ago, i sent a screenshot of our chat where he was talking about one of my friend, to that friend, and sent her reaction to him. At this he got really mad and asked me to not talk to him, he's done. I know i was in the wrong, but i intended it a light joke, but didn't expect this as a reaction. Now as you know he's not talking to me. But we're still connected i don't know till how long. I'm missing him, getting anxiety because of it. And i have apologised to him. But he doesn't want to talk to me.
Please tell me what to do.

idk, i dont feel myself, i am not feeling happy. I have no friends, like not even anyone whom i  can talk to normally, except my boyfriend, who's not able to handle my problems anymore, he's feeling low as well . ik i am expecting a lot from him, but idk, i took a drop this year to prepare for an entrance, and he got into a college and is talking to new people, and i have no one. The manager of the place where i am taking coaching, used to text me a lot, like currently the classes are going online so i have met him only once with my parents, anyways, he used to text me normally and tired being friendly, i wasn't sure of what i should do, but then i started talking to him. Finally after somedays he said he has feelings for me and ofc i dint have any such thing for him, but i liked the fact that someone is giving me attention, because i need people to nag me text me continue and make me feel that they want to talk to me , only then i feel comfortable in talking, maybe because i have a rejection fear or whatever, that's why i haven't made a good friend after i got depressed in class 9, I recovered in class 11, but that changed me a hell lot, before that i had many friends and i was very happy i guess. so coming back to that sir, he used to make me feel so bsd about myself, id even know if he genuinely feel for me, but i dint want to stop talking because i felt i know atleast about someone other than my bf, who btw knows about this man, i have been clear to him about everything, he was ok with this, expect to when that sir made me feel shit about myself and fought with me. i even feared then that he wont help me with the things in class, but the fear isnt there now, its not like i only want to talk to him, its just i want to talk to someone, yesterday he said to stop talking if i dont feel anything for him, i said ok but idk i want to talk to him as a friend .

Friends

How do you feel about your ex now vs the time you just broke up??

3am Thoughts

Actually the thing is that....i am an introvert and i dont have many close friends to share my secrets with which i had felt bad about....So this was 2years back when i met my bf. He is my classmate and when i met him for the first time i felt he was more like a fun loving person(fact is that i liked his way of speaking and fun like never before....but i did not take it seriously).It was the first year of college when i met him.He had a female friend in the same class to whom he was very much close more like a lover that  she used to share everything with him even the most personal things(even the physical things) about her relationship......They were very close friends like she has even told him that she would have accepted if he were to propose her..... I became even more of just an acquaintance to him during the 3rd  semester exam study leaves through FB.At that time he was upset as his friend was not talking to him....He complained that she ignores him when her boyfriend comes....So i just consoled him that bestfriend always has a special place in the heart n that she too will have...We had frequent chats during that time.....I became more close to him(as a friend) that i even failed for an exam due to anxiety as we had a fight during the chat and he was not talking to me....after the exams he went back to her N life was the same to me again though he was in touch with me....He had this habit of having fun by making her jealous but knowingly talking about other female friends which he used to tell me when he tells my name to her....But i was a person who knew little about possessiveness  that i used to ask him that y is she so much frustrated when he does so....One day she got so much mad at him that they stopped talking when he told her about me since the previous days...i advised him to go n talk to her ...That day he talked to her and the problem was solved but i felt a little sad when i saw him with her....When i was commuting back home after college by bus i had to control my tears when i saw them chatting even in the bus.He consoled me that day through chat. After few days he broke up with his friend and the reason was me which i came to know a few days back.After that incident, i used tell him to go back to her(even if i would feel sad).....but he was angry at her that he refused.After few months of friendship ,he proposed me as he didnot want to lose me but not out of love.But i could not leave him as i loved him so much and was very happy.He was sincere in this relationship and he still is.Now, his old friend has started talking to him....But she loves him so much n also misses him which she has told him but she doesnt become that close thinking that i would feel bad and he also has a deep connection with her in his heart.... He still has this  habit of making both of us jealous and insecure by telling about the other person's name .I also have so so sooo much of this guilty feeling that i was the reason for their breakup that i want to give him back to her as i feel that he like her from the depth of his heart (But he was the only person close to my heart😖)....What do i do????....Should i leave him forcefully saying some other reason so that he is back with his bestest friend ever(he has told me that) and also i can get rid of this guilty feeling .......He says that 
he cant lose me but not her either as he feels some kind of connection with her...... Someone help me(Sorry for this long note and my bad English)

Relationships

Why is so difficult to accept that the person you loved with all your heart was  not what you thought he was....
Why even after you understand that he is not waht you thought he is and he is not good for your mental and emotional health you want things to work... 
Why do we care for other person more than ourselves even when we are not that selfless otherwise....
Why don't we have that switch to turnoff our feelings..
I know he will never get to reach this but I really want to tell him no matter how much I love him and how worried I'm right now... I just can't look back and try to fix things for us... for the fist time I life I'm choosing myself for good.
Goodbye.

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