What to do when you find your friends distancing from you and realise they don't even care 

Friends

Come to think of it 
I actually don't have any childhood friend who was with me or anything , 
My nature confused people they see an happy person in me who is talkative always smile bright, 
They are busy seeing my face my bright smile so they don't see the scars i have on my back 
Actually don't have many friends 
I know lot of people that's it 
I'm not sad about this nor happy
Happy friendship day 💕

Intro

Ever felt left out by your only friends

Mental Health

Since my childhood i never had a friend.. I'm alone but last year a dog come into my life. I called him Oreo.. he become my everything when I'm facing my dark time.. but last month he died. God take him from me. My everything I ever had in my life. I miss you a lot brooo.😭😭

Loss

Friends don't feel like friends anymore, but a burden I desperately want to get rid of. Does having friends mean being criticized and judged for everything I do and say? Does it mean not being able to be myself or express my real emotions? Needing reassurance of my own existence? It's like a prison without bars maybe even an endless loop hole. If this is the meaning of friendship, then I'd rather not have any.

I hope one day I will finally feel the true joy of friendship, the type of joy I first experienced in my youth; pure, innocent and carefree joy. 

I hope for this burden to finally be lifted. Because I'm tired.

I feel like the outcast in my friend group

Lonely

I was just lying in my bed when I realised that I'm just a backup friend for all my friends. Like I used to think that all of us were bestfriends and would always be there for each other but then they always describe as only friends and call other people their bestfriends. Last night as I was lying in my bed I realised this fact. Am I really that worthless that I'm just a backup friend for all my friends? Am I really just worthy enough to be a back up?

3am Thoughts

I have friends but I feel none of them are my best friends like there all more close. I don’t believe I have any real friends and I’m worried I’m always left alone and most of my friends are of the opposite gender and I don’t feel that is a great thing???  

Anxiety

How can this world be so fake. 
The people around us. The people we thought loved us. The words of love.
The promised togetherness. How can it be so so fake. 
That i no longer wish to be with anyone. To trust anyone. To believe promises. To believe faces.
How fake is this world

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