What is friendship, can you describe it in one word? Is it possible? Friendship is such a beautiful thing... How can you put it in just a word? When someone asked me to define friendship, I am unable to stop speaking. There are so many things that make up a friendship. Each and every friendship is valuable to me and I cherish them. One word isn't just enough to describe this beautiful thing.

Ok 1 word to describe any friendship according to me is comfort

Friends

Back on this platform after a long time
Since i have left , i have changed myself 
Gone from being alone to making many friends and one girlfriend , i totally love.

Its happening again , everyone has started leaving , the thing i fear the most and changed to my strength of being alone , now being in a social group after all , being alone haunts me again.

I don't know whats happned , my girlfriend i feel like try to find ways to talk to me , everytime we talk its about studies that too once in maybe 2 weeks, and if i ask something else she just states after exams.
I try to understand that exams are important and she might be busy , then i see her going to parties and hanging out with everyone else.
My friens left and maybe she is going too soon 
I dont know how i feel somedays are good somedays are bad , its just an ongoing cycle

2 and a half month since my best friend and I broke up sometimes I look at the way life goes you know we have been friends for 4 years and she forgotten me within 4 seconds she left me like a stranger and she changed so fast that I never got a chance to realise at first what kind of person she really is I have been depressed since 2 month crying almost every day but she is enjoying her life with her new gorgeous friend she doesn't care she was selfish she thinks it's soo normal to hurt someone she was like my sister I have been there in her saddest time of her life and she forgot everything even I msged her in 1st sep I forgot how she hurted me msging her was more like betraying myself cuz I cared about her and our friendship was important to me but she saw my msges and ignored me sometimes we can't take back things that we give like the care and effort we put together to make anyone happy we can't take it back 

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.

So recently when me and my bestie were chatting , she blocked me in the middle of the conversation but I wasnt aware of it and I thought she must've fallen asleep or something and I sent her these good night good morning messages and I was waiting for her to reply. Next morning I get a hunch that she blocked me so I asked her on insta whether she blocked me or not. And she goes,"um yeah my head was aching and you were irritating me so I blocked you". And she starts saying that I have changed and I always think that I am right in every situation and that I'm kind of a self absorbed narcissist and it hurt me a lot. Then after some time she's like its my fault I'm sorry forgive me plz and all and we basically settle everything. But I haven't forgiven her. Whenever I chat with her I think she'll block me anytime. And not only that she has said a lot of things to hurt me. My other friend keeps suggesting me that my bestie is toxic and that she's really annoying and that I should leave her. Should I? Or should I forgive everything she did and pretend like nothing happened?

Confusion

what do you call a person who is friends with you, has ways of contacting you but would rather listen to how you are from other people and not get to know you personally?? 

I'm sober tmmrw. I've got a new hair cut, I'm finding a new spiritual path. but I'm alone. I lost my closest friend, but i have no one else, because i pushed them all away to be with her. I felt like this was more of a breakup than a friendship ending. I'm not too good at making friendships that last, but i want more friends. I don't even know what i did wrong. I know i said things, i know i talked about how i would drop her if i got a bf, and how i would drop the world if i did. but she got mad, and left. I'm not her other friends. I fell in love with her and now we won't even talk to each other. I want her attention but then i think about how weak i am for her then it's over because that's it. that's the truth. I fell in love with her, and i know she didn't love me back. I fell in love with the wake she would fall asleep next to me, how she would plan each outfit carefully, the way she would walk with a bounce in her step if we would get food. Her face when you'd give her stuff. She's gonna be loved, but not by me, and that is the hardest things I'll ever have to accept. But the worst part was that I lost my friend, my closest companion. 

What is the one quality your friend should posses?


Gender Equality

The last two years have been awful. I never knew growth was this hard.  I'll start from the beginning. Ive been an introvert all my life, in high school I was approached by a strange girl who I later began to develop feelings for.  Her name was Ashley and she was all I thought about.  Long story short,  I learned that Ashley had a bit of a complex and enjoyed leading me on because she enjoyed having followers.  This sort of fucked me up having this happen in my more formative years.  I spent the rest of high school getting over her.  She changed after that, she got a boyfriend and moved away to new york and we stayed in touch as friends.  Occasionally playing league of legends.  I never dreamed of falling for her again.  Eventually, she broke up with her boyfriend and came home to reconnect with her family.  We had many friends in common and naturally we all started hanging out again once she moved back into our friends house. One thing lead to another and I ended up planting this seed in my head that maybe things could work out between us now that she was back and she wasnt so manipulative.  She insisted on a platonic relationship but I wasnt ready to listen.  I started paying her large sums of money to dominate me.  It helped us both because she needed the money and it was very therapeutic to me.  My therapist says she made me this way in the first place or at least contributed.  Anyway it ended up pushing them away.  I began to get more unstable as she started seeing other guys.  I pushed all my friends away. It broke me down to my very core.  Fast forward and I am talking with one of them again but ashley doesnt seem to want anything to do with me.  I still see her with other guys and it breaks my heart.  I dont know what to do.  I dont know if ill ever get over her.  Ive been in therapy for 2 years and its not help.  I want to end it all.  She's the most beautiful thing to ever walk the planet.  I miss my friends too.  I feel more alone than ever. When she left I started messaging random girls on instagram trying to fill the deep hole in my heart and I lost more friends in the process.

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