we're all killers.

we've all killed parts of ourselves to survive.

we've all got blood on our hands. something somewhere had to die so we could stay alive.

- if memories could bleed, if dreams could scream | m.a.w (via dvoyd)

Aditya Sahu 

3am Thoughts

whos ur fave person in the world?

I can’t express or explain anything abt my feelings..someone used me to forget a person her lyf ..we were in relationship for 1 year she jst used me and left .. now so deeply I want her our memories are killing me everyday …now we’re strangers again… we meet everyday in a campus she acts like I’m nothing to her like an unknown person after all this I began to smoke jst to forget this depression and loneliness at frst it was normal now I’m addicted it without smoking I can’t control myself ….. can anyone help me ? Am alone anyone want to be a frnd with me..?

Addiction

I am not ok. 
Hardest words I’ve never said.
Why? I don’t know maybe if I pretend I’ll eventually be ok although I know deep down I’m going to keep free falling never touching solid ground. Never allowing anyone to gain my trust because I can only trust me myself and I. I’m my own black hole of misery continuing to drag myself into darkness. It’s like being in a cage but it’s unlocked and I’m too afraid of the games life makes me play inside my head too ever leave. Questioning every move I make too afraid to make a mistake. 

Anxiety

Angry and frustrated 

I am 8 months pregnant and my first baby is going to be here soon. We have been trying for 10 years and finally through IVF we have been successful. Everyone on both sides of family is happy. We live in the US and have no immediate family to help us. My mother in law came when I was around 4 months and has been looking after us. In India she lives with her daughter,  son in law and grand daughter in Mumbai. We used to live in Bangalore. Since both of them work  she takes care of the kid. Now they are somehow managing since she is here with us. The kid is almost 12. The issue is as long as my mother in law is not living with us she is on good terms with me. Whenever she is visiting she tries to nitpick issues with me. I ignore it most of the time as it's nothing major and I don't like blowing things out of proportion. I try to avoid confrontation unless absolutely necessary. Even when I have had confrontation with her I never involved my husband in it. I dealt with it myself. Now since I m pregnant she has tried her best not to upset me. But it's in her nature so once in a while she says something. Again I ignore it coz I need to maintain my Peace of mind for my baby's sake. So now she is using new approach to get me to retaliate. By making comments about my family, especially my mother. She knows that is something I won't ignore and will react to. I react and we have a back and forth. After a while she comes back pretending as if nothing has happened. I try to be normal too as I have to continue living with her for few more months. But I can't forget all the stuff she says. I don't know how to vent it out. I don't like involving my husband as he is already swamped with office stuff and I m not really the kind of person to tattle. I don't want to put him in a position where he has to choose between me and her. I want to continue having a normal relationship with her. She is the one making it impossible. 

Conflict

Remember, we are and always will be smart enough, good enough and strong enough. 
💫🌈

Affirmations

My girlfriend is not talking to me for days now, i feel like there is no one to talk to. I wanto to cry but can’t because what explanation I’ll give to people who are around me

Lonely

Hello
How are u?
Any Telugu peeps here? 

How do I convince myself to stay away from instagram and YouTube? These are my biggest distractions.
I am going in 12th standard this year and this year is quite crucial for my career

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