Very sad.
Almost all through my life, I have always been waiting for my convocation, a day where I would go on stage, recieve my degree (maybe a topper medal since I have been the high achiever kid in school), make my parents proud, get a senti photo session with batchmates, have all the yolo moments in college, graduate properly, and of all, wear that robe with a good ass attire and throw the graduation hat off.
This is my small little dream and then hits the reality. I waited 1.5 years in the hope that sth good will happen. People left hope of an actual convocation long time ago but I held on to the faith that it will happen. I kept lying myself all along. And now the truth is hitting me hard. I will graduate on-line in the next two weeks, with no friends maybe because all of what I had in college, I realised are fake, with no stage, definitely not a medal, with no one last time trip to college where everything is just same as it was before. I don’t think both are possible now. Neither the convocation nor the same situation or the same person I was and the perspective I had. Because my life has changed alot since the pandemic and so did the person inside me. I have had my bad days, pretty much of them but what I feel today is sadness in the most genuine and hard hitting form I can imagine.
P.S. I know this problem looks a very small and unimportant infront of the first world problems we are having, but all this is important to me, I like to see happiness in small aspects of my life
no problem is small or unimportant, hope there is something more worth it is coming your way to make your dream come true of making your parents proud.
