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Anonymous

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I was very passionate about the field of logistics and supply chain and built my career around it. Got good fame in the industry as a person who could troubleshoot any problem, who could make loss making operations profitable.
Then in 2012 shifted to management education at the request of someone to establish their PGDM course major of Logistics in the industry. From zero placements in logistics in 2011, I reached 100% placements for the students of logistics in 2014. I even organized international conferences with industry stalwarts and had a focus on women empowerment in this field.
I had single handedly modified the syllabus of 6 papers constituting the major and was the only faculty for those papers. Problem was I was unable to find others who could teach along with me considering the knowledge base required to handle these papers. This was also openly declared by Head of Education for CILT India in his speech wherein he had said that he never came across this kind of syllabus anywhere in the world and there won’t be many persons who could teach this kind of syllabus. I was also instrumental in opening the first Institutional chapter in the history of the organization that was more than 100 years old with a presence across more than 100 countries.
But during this period post the year when I placed my entire batch 2 months before the start of the placement season, I started facing tremendous amount of politics and opposition from other facilities including the senior ones. In 2015 there were multiple attempts to discontinue my major resulting in me going through a mild heart attack in December.
Finally I was handed down a new syllabus that effectively killed my major. And this semester the last students of my major will pass out.
Of course placements started suffering from 2016 as repeated attempts were made to discontinue my major.
Now it hurts to go to the college to teach, having lost interest in everything and last couple of weeks I feel like jumping of the 6th or 9th floor… I couldn’t go back to the industry as that would require leaving home and had couple of verbal fights with my wife who refuses to go to some other place and also refuses to allow me to go. Can’t blame her much as she wants to be at her home and wants me to be at her side. Plus she has her own problems.
So I have virtually given up and keep dragging myself and till the time I can continue the urge to end everything.

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Kushagra @kushgpt

its a general suggestion from my side
your knowledge is your biggest weapon and i would say to think about the option the u can do with ur knowledge in ur expertise . start looking for companies who are looking for people like and are okay with you working from home . talk to your friends about and open up about ur mental wellbeing to your partner

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Anonymous

Well I talked about it here. And thank you for replying. Didn’t think anybody would have time to listen, sorry read my thoughts. Thank You for your time. It mattered to me.

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Kushagra @kushgpt

brother
everyones have there up’s and down’s .
i have a 8 figure business but still i am not happpy i am looking for the ways about how to leave this and start a new life
and i would say you should too lookout for all the options available IN front of you and you with such a knowledge will definitely find a right path

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