Depression

Everyday I put on a face, a face for friends a face for my partner a face for my colleagues a face for the people around me. Now I don't even know I am. 

3am Thoughts

Another day passes with increasing pain and suffer where you lose one more hope to be loved and still reading those self love quotes or motivation ones but you know they won't help you anymore... You ask yourself, will someone love me? But you know no one will... What's your mistake in this and you hear its not you it's me. Just like that you'll be gone forever and there's no turning back. apart from pain, suffering, self hate there's nothing else.

Hey!! Hope y'all are doing well!!! 
I'm a 18 y/o girl looking forward to connect people here around my age to make friends who wouldn't mind me being bisexual. Preferably girls and peeps from lgbt

Friends

I really need help...I don't know what is going on...I feel exhausted and drained most of the time... I just want to rant about everything to someone...    I have tried to reach out but no one noticed...  it seems like everyone is busy in their own lives and I am bothering them

Anger Issues

Can the hope get alive if its dead already? 

Kuch अजनबी ,
अपनो से बेहतर mil jate hai !

I was in love with a guy way so much that he left me saying I was too good for him..broke me into thousand pieces leading me into depression...it took me 4 long years to realise that I was suffering for something I was not even at fault.. I kept myself busy with studies then work to forget everything...I also maintained distance with everyone around me.. I didn't trust anyone..my family and friends loved me and never gave up on me...I slowly saw I was not suffering alone .. my behavior made my family and friends suffer too...I slowly mend every relation I left behind or say I was blessed to have people around me who had wide arms always ready for me...
Later 
I met a guy ... because my mom n dad wanted me to get married or atleast find someone who will be good for me..I was not really sure about this but then thought why not see how this goes..so after going through many profiles I said no to the matrimony idea ...n few days later I find a msg on IG saying found u on the matrimony app ...if u r comfortable with the talking thing we can talk ...so yes I did msg him back ...I also told my parents about it...so slowly we started talking to each other n later it was like regular calls and texts...later..mom n dad asked me about further process as this was a marriage thing that they were looking forward to conclude with..I told him n he's like okay give me some time...he later told me he lost his job n was not in a place to make a call or ask his parents to talk to mine because he had no job so it's obvious my dad will question about his financial stability...he said he will find a good job n then make a call...I could understand him also his part but I couldn't say this to my parents...I told them I need some more time...my dad said he didn't want me to talk to a guy for no reason n get fooled again ...to be honest as a parent my dad and his concern makes sense but I believe him that he's not lying he's been honest always about everything...my mom n dad also came up with other proposals n I was not interested.. he's different I'm completely comfortable with him I have fallen for him but I'm also afraid....it's like this guy is a kind that I always wanted but I feel I'm being bad to my parents...I told them I'm not talking to him but I do talk to him....he wants to be settled...and I support him for that....I Love him so does he....but then there's something I'm not the same how I used to be before...my break up made me strong ..I'm not so emotional now I'm moreover a practical kind....many times I feel I'm doing something wrong but then his words it's like I believe them....but I have a doubt ...maybe it's because people around me talk negative about him...I have this fear of abandonment ...I don't want to be in love n get my heart broken all over again..I am really harsh..rude..to him at times n say just go away but he sticks to me saying I'm not going anywhere...he has never ever once said about leaving me...i lose my temper many times because I have to deal with peopIe around me .... People around me love me n are so concerned about me...I tried keeping distance from him but I failed....he makes me feel loved like no one else..he's my secret that's only mine ....l always think about him...I don't want to hurt him..but I don't want to get hurt aswell ...I fear losing him.....my fear will make him go away...I don't know what to do really....

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