Useless. Just useless. It was fcking useless to talk to my parents. Always. It’s like I am talking to a fcking wall. 

Yeah and guess what, now my father is going to start drinking again and I am super jiterry and stressed even more after talking to them 


Something same happened to me few days back!!😓

Parenting

Tbh i feel like disappearing i hope i can die i hope i can be gone forever maybe that's gonna make everything right everyone will be happy. 

Frustration

I'm feeling so lonely lately... Thinking about everything thing since childhood. The memories I don't want to think about flowing subconsciously. I'm tired of everything. It takes so much of energy to get out of bed and do a simple task. I even feel like quitting my studies so I take break every now and then in name of self love and then regret about it. I'm not of the type who will give up on life just because my life is being hard but still I feel like I need to hurt myself either physically or mentally. All the suicidal thoughts and the scene playing in my head what if I die? I go on crying for days without any reason. There's so much going on and I don't know how to get out of it. 

Insecurity

I wana scream. I wanna run. I wanna cry. I wanna tear myself up. I wanna be free. I wanna go home but I don't know where that is...

3am Thoughts

 so want to yell right now gala faad ke but unable to it’s like I am siniking. Suffocating. Headache on worst level. Eyes are burning. So wanna hit my car to something 

Depression

Can anyone speak chinese?


Overthinking

Journal
Everything was fine till high school, and then college started.. My life just went down.. 
It has been 8months since college started.. 8months were really depressive and i have been going through high anxiety.. I had a relationship in school and now we are not in same college.. In my college I don't have good friends.., I'm not happy with them, I always feel worried and sad.. Suicidal thoughts have been coming across my mind.. My partner is very supportive but he is not there with me in college.. 
I feel like my life is over and there is no point to live further.. I failed for two subjects and i have to reappear them next year.. I don't know what to do... Anxiety is killing me daily.. All my friends are having a good time.. And I'm just surviving.. I want to die.. 

Anxiety

I always feel sad but try to hide it with a smile. I wish people could see how I think. I try to explain it and everyone thinks I’m just going through a phase. I’ve felt like this for the past year. Everyone makes me feel like crap, and then I try to explain it and I’m supposedly trying to make everyone worry.   When people tease me about sensitive things I wonder if they really care about me. When I tell my parents these things they ignore me. I feel alone and trapped in my world. I’m scared of dying, but what’s the point of living if your only purpose of life is a punching bag, tool, and just something people can throw away. I don’t know if it’s because I’m 13 and a girl if I’m just actually going through a phase but I’m tired. I’m tired of being ignored, used, mistreated. I’m sorry for not being good enough, I’m sorry I don’t look how you want me to look, I’m sorry I was born, I’m sorry for everything, but it’s not my fault. 

Misunderstanding

Is my overthinking the cause of me being a very sensitive person ? 😐

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