Uhh😞feeling so lonely..... My bf is not talking to me from last 4 to 5 days and I can't even meet him becoz he live in another city... 


Due to misunderstanding he has blocked me from every platform and i am not able to contact him neither he wants to becoz of his anger

Ysss, misunderstanding and neither he wants to clear things😶 

Then it's good clear it my bf avoid rather then clearing 😂 

You stole my best friend, now you wanna take food off of my plate as well? Heck you are the most selfish person ever 

3am Thoughts

I have difficulty being happy

Depression

anyone want to hear me?

I don't trust people because I just don't understand why would someone, some stranger who barely knows me want to know me or understand me or help me or love and care for me. I mean my own parents have never trusted me or loved me, all they did was convince me that I am the worst Mistake of their life and a Burden so why the fuck would a stranger want to love me, like ME..? Bullshit right? I mean even the expectation of it is nonsense right? Like why? I push away people too much & too fast every time I feel like I have revealed too much about myself. Because I just feel like no one will like me the moment they will know the real me because I am being my own self at home and my parents don't love me and say that I am a mistake and treat me like I am burden to them, so if I reveal myself, my real self, others will think same, and I don't want to be a burden and a mistake and a bad luck for others too, I mean I don't wanna ruin their life too, so I am just scared and yeah, I don't think I deserve to be loved or understood, I think I don't deserve anything good because my parents say I am a mistake and I have heard it so much to the point where I too believe it now. So I just automatically seem to cut off people and run away from people when they come close or start to know me more than they should know or when j start to reveal myself, I feel so uncomfortable and uneasy that I just run away and do not trust anyone because how can I trust them and why should I trust them and why would they want to know a person like me? And love me? And want to know me? No one wants me! And if someone is saying that they want me or be my friend and love me or be there for me then that surely is a lie because how can anyone ever even want me? What am I? I am nothing. I am nobody. Nothing special at all. Just no one. My existence doesn't even matter so how can someone come and say that it matters and I am special? How can I be special and deserving of love & trust? Do I deserve it? Really? Idk. I was being and I still am being told that no one would ever want a person like me tho?!  


Confusion

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