TW: self harm?????






So when I get strong emotions I tend to scratch myself without realizing it or I do it bc of the urge to do so.
Anybody know how to get myself to stop?
Also, how to I treat the scratch? I have a mark on my arm and I don't want anybody to get worried.

Apply coconut oil.. and pls be gentle to your body.. self harm is not good.. it scares me🙏🙏

You need to consult a doctor for such things! Tc. 

Self Harm

The Misfit Puzzle

I’m the puzzle piece that doesn’t fit,
always pretending to be cheerful and sunny 
one,
so I could just squeeze in a little bit.

I’m afraid of being the child lost in the crowd, so I wear a mask to drown the noise  so loud,
to avoid being the odd one out.

I cut my sides to just be it,
but I always end up being the piece that doesn’t fit.


How’s this? I’m a beginner and this is my second poem😅

3am Thoughts

It gets harder and harder for me not to cut. Therapy don’t help. I didn’t cut but a minute ago I scratched my forehead a bit hard and I remembered the feeling I got from cutting. I tried telling myself don’t but I still wanted to… In summary it’s hard being clean and I want to cut again but I can’t 😐

Addiction

In grade 10 I used to carry a knife to school because I was frustrated due to many things and had a poor mental health BUT I DID NOT CAUSE ANY HARM WITH That knife so will I be punished right now I am in class 11 . If I would be punished I would prefer suicide because it was due to my irritation from life that I stuck myself here, secondly it was considered cool in my school

So the first time I did self harm was when I was in 8th grade. Which was 7 years ago. Am 20 now, in my final year of degree and I've started doing it again. Idk why I did it then. I've always been the depressed kid w problems I think? Always been a lil crazy in the head? Now, I don't make deep cuts or something. It's just slight scratches, but I do use a knife. It's umm idk what, why and how but becoming a sort of a habit, I think. I don't know. It happens everytime I can't process things, have breakdowns or anger issues over the smallest things. 
Well, I think I just needed to vent it out. Am sorry if anyone comes across this post and it upsets them. 

i cut my arm a few nights ago and i want to keep going and i dont want to be here. everyone is making me feel like im a shitty person. everyone makes me feel like i do everything wrong. all i want right now is to disapear

Suicidal Ideation

i just want to self-harm. i'm trying to stop myself but i know i'll feel better when i do it. omg pls i want to do it so much

It's amazing how literally nothing in my life has changed since the last time I've been on this app. I didn't expect the scars on my face to suddenly vanish or for someone to suddenly look beyond them, but I still feel a little bad about all that. 

The only thing that you can say has changed are my meds. I'm back on vicodin. 

Affirmations

I self harm
not very often or anything it just happens
and my scars are all gone
which should be a good thing right?
but it feels like I need them there
I need them to control myself
and if they arent there im going to die

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