TW: ED???

Honestly, I’m trying I really am, and it seems so pathetic because I know that I’m hungry, but when I do, I’ll just randomly start feeling bad for eating especially since I’m a dancer and I have to stay skinny, or I’m kicked off the team. It’s already hard to find a team due to my skin color, eating too much is just another thing. Then when I look in the mirror all I see is imperfection. In my family I’m criticized for not having a “feminine” body or dressing size. It’s always “why don’t you have any curves you’re a girl.”, “Stuff your bra with paper towel you’re to flat”," You’re so fat you should hold off on the eating for a bit yea…?" I’m so tired of it.