TW: depression, adhd
Er… just a very common question… am I depressed or just being lazy…?
This has been kinda going on for quite a few months(maybe since the pandemic…?), and to put it very bluntly… I’m getting nothing done.
(neither wanting nor enjoying that…)
Even the things I used to love…
make me feel drained now…
I still get excited and enthusiastic at times, but not because I really feel the enthusiasm… it’s more like a wired reflex, perhaps because I’ve always been excited about every little thing…
I just… don’t feel like doing anything anymore… and this feeling kinda kicks in every now and then…
I’m, like… kinda aware of my building backlog, the coming deadlines, everything that I want to do (and should be doing), but well… I’ll just scream and plead and beg and shout at myself internally, and simultaneously continue doing nothing…
Also, I’ve always related to adhd symptoms… but idk…? I’ve never been tested so well…
Idk, did that make any sense though…?