Trust yourself that you can do it and get it. You don't need anyone for your success.

Motivation

peeps 
having my sem exam soon
studying:okay
laziness:going strong
procrasitnation: checked
tension: building up
what to doo
aaaaahhhhhh


Anxiety

If I am for others' then  who is for me? And If I am for myself, then  what Am I For? 

Exhausted

Maine kabhi socha nahi tha mujhe life me yeh bhi sochna parega ki mai kr paungi ki nahi!? Ha, humesha me khud se kaha karti thi ki aisa koi kaam nahi, aisi koi chiz nhi jo mai nahi kar sakti, u know khud ka confidence boost karne ke liye, actually mere pass devi ki tarah eleanor aur fabiola toh nahi hai aur naa hi lara jean ki tarah kitty jo uski humesha madad krti thi, jab jab bhi maine logon se kuch expect kia hai tab tab mai disappoint hui hu, isiliye ab expect karna chorr dia hai!
Aur socha hai khud ko itna independent banaungi ki kabhi logon ki zaroorat na pare par u know kabhi kabhi khalipan sa lagta hai, kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki kaash koi hota jo mujhse kehta ki you can do it, itna socho mat, tumne bhut kuch saha hai aur sehne ki zaroorat nahi hai, par damn koi bolta hi nai, aur hamesha mai logo ke samne kisi na kisi kaaran se kharab ban hi jaati hu, meri kismat hi aisi hai kya karu, log online me kaafi pasand krte hai mujhe par offline me khair samajh hi gaye hoge! 🙃

3am Thoughts

Lgta hai lotus sunflower ko bhool gya..!!!! 

Dreams

It's funny how my ex, who was my first (yeah ik, firsts are traumatizing/learning lessons etc etc) started victimizing herself for every little thing. She even thought, deep in my subconscious, i feel she will cheat on me, BECAUSE i had 2-3 dreams where she was some queen and i was a soldier and had to fight a quest and defeat the king to win her back. This is not even the worst. She started getting close with a friend of mine and called it a platonic relationship. balls. my whole batch could see what is going on and told me to stay away from her. Whenever i talked to her about this, she would start victimizing herself again and blame me for 'accusing' her. The most fucked up thing is that she fought with literally everyone and said that there is nothing between her and that dude, but clearly, they both ended fucking around all this while :) 
now both of them have lost all their friend due to their behaviour.
The funniest of them all is that she started calling me Toxic and a psycho person and started spreading shit about me, where as all i did was tried to believe her when she said 'If you ever trusted me, I'm telling you me and him are just platonic friends." 

Issa long story, so sorry i cant put myself through the PTSD(yes it feels like PTSD) by remembering and ranting all this out. Fucking hell i can write a short book on this shit😂

fuck bro

Mental Health

I m feeling fine...like yes I can handle things!!!

I live with my mother in law and my husband.  I work at home because of covid and he never leaves the home! I hate it, I don't want to talk to her but I feel like such a bad person.  My job is exhausting and just want to be alone or with my husband.  

Mental Wellbeing

Just because I scare if ppl might judge me I hurt his feeling. I feel like a garbage. I miss my mom. I want to hug her. This is the biggest mistake I ever done. I want to get back but I'm too scared.

Dont mind me. I just dont have place to lean thats all.

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