Trigger warning: ED
hi, I’m feeling pretty hopeless lately, I’m tired, I want to cry, I struggle with my eating disorder every day, I’m a mess in school, I’m a mess with people, my family hates me probably (rightfully so I’m always fighting with everyone), we are still in quarantine and I don’t talk a lot with my friends, since I’m in my second year of college I don’t have any friends on college, and school projects are so hard for me, I know a small group but they are not my friends, we just do homework together sometimes. About my ed a lot of my friends know about it but they don’t know how to help, my family doesn’t know and I think it’s better that way, but I just feel really alone and sad.
I kinda had bulimia while I was losing weight, and when quarantine started I stop because all my family was at home and I was afraid they could hear something, but keeping my food in is so hard even now a year later. I also have a binge eating disorder and sometimes I eat so much that my stomach hurts for days, I gained a lot of weight last year, and starting a diet again is so hard, but I just want to feel pretty and worth something again.
I wish I could believe that… I really wish that, but thanks💖
Hey honey, I just want you to know that nobody is perfect, you just got to accept yourself, embrace yourself and love yourself.
Firstly, having friends or no friends does not matter because nobody stays forever, you have to stay happy yourself sweetie. One may be lonely even if they are sitting with a bunch of people called friends or one maybe content even sitting alone.
Happiness does not come with the people around, it comes from within YOU.
Secondly, your FAMILY DOES NOT HATE YOU, I get that their may be fights but nothing that couldn’t be solved by talking. I, myself am a short-tempered person, and I fight a lot but I know that only one that cares is your family. You just need to talk them, tell them about your condition, they will understand.
Thirdly, your physical health is related to your mental health, you need to stop worrying, thinking unworthy of yourself and trust me the healing process will me much faster.
And lastly, it is your body hon, it is going to stay with you forever, you gotta take care of it, because only you can and I know YOU CAN, just push yourself a little harder everyday.
Don’t think yourself as unworthy because how will people know your worth when you yourself don’t understand it? YOU need to LOVE YOURSELF. It is more important than anything else right now.
Just show everyone how good you are and what good you can do and you can start by taking care of your health first.
Lots of love :)
Jenevieve @tootsie_pop
do u want to talk i’m going through a lot of the same things?
