Today I went for a run at a place where many athletes come, I have gained 10kgs in this pandamic, we were lifting people by making pair , the girl who was my partner was 50kgs and I am of 70kgs, she wasn’t able to lift me on her back and consequently fell down people started laughing, I was doing fine till yesterday when I used to run on my own, today when I faced the cruelty of the world again I feel very low about myself, I know it will pass but I just feel low and alone and angry. I have been consumed of self hatred now for a very long time, I do good sometimes but whenever I face mockery my self esteem again shatters, I also know that it’s them who are bad because they don’t appreciate a person who has taken a step towards a healthy physical journey. But still idky it makes me feel very low.
Im so sorry you feel this way and are going through this. The world is such a cruel place is ridiculous. Always remember, you are never the problem. These people just arent happy with themselves so they laugh at other people. Always love yourself no matter what and dont doubt yourself. Youre opinion and your confidence in yourself is the only thing that matters. I do understand though I go through the same thing. But you can do this and get through it. As far as your anger goes, I suggest trying working out on a punching bag. It helps with physical health and lets you release your anger in a healthy safe way. Much luck to you ! Im here if you want to talk more.
Thankyou so much for your kind words I feel ligh hearted. ❤️
On behalf of this horrible human race I would like to apologise. I know what it’s like to be mocked and there are few things worse than that feeling of your self esteem dropping lower than Hell. But you know what? They don’t have your heart. You are kind and that is one of the most beautiful things. I like to say it’s not a person’s size, it’s what’s behind their eyes’ that’s beautiful. And I know you have a beautiful soul. I don’t have the confidence to wear clothes I like or go to the gym, but I try to wear those clothes at home, and I dance around my house for exercise. Please just know you are amazing. Check out this video on Youtube by Prince EA, it’s called “Dear Girls; You’re Ugly” (it sounds nasty but I PROMISE you it’s not)
I will surely do that sweet person, thankyou for making me feel good. ❤️ I hope you also come out of your problems some day, and if you need a friend talk to me.
That is incredibly sweet thank you, I hope everything works out for you too :)
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