Today, I was told to talk about the person whom I admire the most and why. I didn't know whom i admire so that i created a fake friend and said that her life is beautiful even with all the hardships and they way she presents herself with the people around is admiring. After I have done talking, I realised that I was talking about me.

Maybe I'm not ready to accept that I admire myself. How to deal with this. It's good to listen as a story of someone else but accepting that my life is going in a good path after a long time SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME😓

Hey, it's alright. Accept yourself the way you're. You'll do great and you'll be the one standing with yourself till the end! Embrace and love yourself!!!!

I feel attracted to girls but not in a sexual way. Does that mean am a bi.

Confusion

Itna Darna sahi nhi hai. I slept but nind me bhi I felt scary all the time. I don't know how to deal with this anxiety and stress I have all the time. I feel so helpless.. nobody can do anything with this, I have to deal with it myself. I'm just so fed up. I feel exhausted.

Mental Illness

Remember if your absence didn't bother them then your presence never mattered to them. 

Self Love

Remember when parents told us don't talk to strangers online now look at you falling in love with one.😫🥺

3am Thoughts

Aahh there's this one famous guy in our college. The very first day we talked he flirted with me. We had a call on the same night and I told him most of the things about me. He told me we will meet the nest day to which I said no. We are living in the same hostel. Idk what I want to ask why I'm writing this here. Nothing makes sense. Idk what I want from him. He ghosted me after sometime (which was totally acceptable coz he tried to talk to me so many times and I couldn't coz of my social anxiety) I was so sad on that time being. Then when I moved on (there was nothing still idk why I do this to myself) he made a comeback and I am still as hyper as earlier and reply to his text within minutes (idk people say it's not right, but I just can't do it. I have to reply people immediately maybe coz I'm in need to talk with someone. Whatever maybe the topic is.)  Now...idk what this is. I think it's just infatuation coz he gets the thing I talk about. He gets me. I love the way he write some words in text. I've also told him that. But he doesn't seem interested in anymore. And it's ok I will not disturb him as well but atleast tell me that's what you want so both of us can I've in peace. All. Idk if it's a question or a vent lmao. You can give your piece of advice. Thank you.

Feeling low today 🥴😓 I just don’t feel like doing diet or going to gym I just hate it now 🥴😓

Lonely

Daydreaming and creating scenarios in your head... 
Trying escape reality...
Reverie they say...
Its when someone are being pleasantly lost in their own thoughts...
Its a beautiful word... 

But
People like this are really in deep trouble...
They can get heartbroken easily...
They always expecting eveything but reality
They want something that...
Very unreal

Its dangerous what the mind can do to us...
It control us...
Trying the best to make us feel in peace
Trying to dodge the bullets that reality shot at us
Trying...
Just trying to be happy...

That's all we want...
Happiness
Either with someone or something
It doesn't matter...
But no... the society say
You can't do this 
You can't do that
Is this what the world have become?
All we want are just...
For a second..
Reverie. 

Until it became an illness...
A mental illness
That everyone didn't realised 



So i just entered a relationship and I thought it would be the end of it, This would be the one I wanna be with. But entering into my very first relationship. I don't feel it. I feel bound in it. I miss my single life. I miss the fun I had with my girls and even if he is the sweetest guy, i cant wait to get rid of him What am i supposed to do? I used to like him , but i really don't know now.

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