today I feel lost in a hell-bent war on my life without my bf Iβm hopeless but Iβm more prone to my disorder and, not being with him will cause me to get grey footed but I am tired of being toyed like a chew toy tho I canβt speak out of terms with my job- if anyone been where I am just a friend to me oh ps my disorder is this hyperactivity, yes i know people who judge me for that is wrong but I get yelled at more then ten times but I deal with the loss of my own pain itβs not okay but i donβt know what to do Iβm stressed out I could be losing it quietly but I hope not well night guys