Today I bought a good camera phone.
Now I realised jab shakal hi achi ni h to kuch ni hoga... kitna acha phone kyu na kharid lo 😅😂

Anger Issues

My ex once told me this "agr apne koi saath aise hota hai na baat karne wala , to lagta hai ki haan koi support hai, tum akele nhi ho"I didn't understand this at that time cause I have always been alone and I dont share much with anyone even with my best friends but I started sharing everything with him.I dont want him back but I do understand his words now. I would really like someone's support in this difficult times.

Depression

Why i am soo bad at talking to girls or baatein kya krte h ladke ladkiyon se apart kesi ho ,khana khaya ,kya hua ?? Bhai scene kya h 🥺🥺

Mujhe pta nhi kya ho gya hai. 
I'm getting mad day by day. 
Mental with each day passing by. 

3am Thoughts

Me and my frnd planned for this weekend a week before and now she is suddenly telling me uske bf ka frnd bimar hai jo sirf bahana hai she actually wants to go with her bf bcoz vo Achanak se yaha aarah h  she said ki mai understand karu 😔 I m feeling really sad  this shows priorities 

Friends

Janti thi shuru se hi...
Tum mile ho to tumhe khona bhi padega,
Pyaar kiya h to rona bhi padega,
Pr phir bhi...
Phir bhii nhi rok paayi khud ko,
Nhi rok paayi khudko un aakhon m dhalte huye...teri aawaz m khote huye,
Aur na hi rok paayi tujhko mujhse door hote huye.
Rokna to boht chaha...
Pr kis kisko rokti...
Is dil ko jo ab uske liye dhadakne lga tha ya in aakhon ko jo ab sirf uski ek jhalak dekhne ko tarasne lgi thi,
Kis kisko rokti..
Un kaano ko jo sirf use sunna chahte the ya in lavo ko jo sirf usse hi guftagu krna chahte the...
Chlo maan liya..
Maan liya unko rok bhi leti...
To khudko kaise rokti...
Kaise rokti m khudko jb zindagi se jeet kr tum pr haar gyi thi khudko..
Aur har dafa haarne ke baad ab ye haar bhi pyaari lgne lgi thi❤
                                       
                    🍁ARU🍁



Hiii
Love letter
Pahle mujhe bhi lagta tha ki love at first kuch nahi hota par jaise hi thume haste huye dekha dhadkhe ruki tho nahi par tej ho gaye
Mere chehre par blush aur tum par crush dono ek saath aa gaya thumara muskurate huya chehra mere khayalo mein bar bar aaye ja raha hai
Dekho zyada ghuma ke nahi kahunga kyunki ishare thumi waise bhi samajh nahi aatetum acchi lagti ho kyunki tum acchi ho bohot se karan hai jo tumhe itna khaas banaate hai
Thumare aakhe unke dekh kar bas unn main doobne ka mann karta hai
Thumare haise dekhkar main apni sari takleef mita sakta hu
Thumara ghussa tumhara hai toh woh bhi pyaar lagta hai
Dekho mujhe jataana nahi aata main thume pasand karta hu par is baat ko mujhe samajh nahi aata main jo likha hai vo bohot soch vichar karke ke baad likha hai
Ye rishte banaane ke maamle main na thoda kacha sa hu abhi
Toh darr laga raheta hai kahi tum bura man gayi toh mera toh dil toota jaye ga
Main zyada baat nahi karta kisi se par tuhumse baata karne ke liye na main bohot bahane dundh lunga
Ho sakta hai main thumare photo like kar bhoolunga par dil me quid karna nahi
Pyaar ke paribhasha main mujhe lagta hai thumra zikra zaroori hai
Tum dil mein nahi ho mere tum dil ho mera
Thumare jaise aur kai nahi
Tum kya maayine rakhte ho
Main likha kar bata nahi sakta

Crush

Hey there, I was thinking and thinking about something recently... And I found this site. 
So...
Five years ago, there was a family function and I went to my maternal grandparents' home. There I met a guy of my age... We were teenagers back then and we did play stupid games like.. dumb charades, going on a see saw, hide and seek and many more along with the other kids in our house.. one day, him, along with his brothers and me along with my sister got involved in a pillow fight... He was having fight with me and his other brothers were having fight with my sister.
Nevermind old memories suck.. (they were unforgettable happy memories though)
And then, after so many years... I meet him again.
Everything changed. We had accidental eye contacts across the room thrice or four times... But no one initiated the conversation.
The silence was thick between us, and I couldn't help but think of coincidences I had in past with him.
- I saw a picture in which he was standing behind me aged six or seven 
- he had the same cap as I had when I saw him years ago
- while knocking on a door, the least I expected was for him to answer it
And many more coincidences..
I'm really confused of what this is... He's not my cousin or something but we are related in a **complicated** way. 
From the day I saw him again... I'm just confused as hell! And I'm not someone who believes in all this... Stuff but it's getting weird.. 

Love

 Aaj labzo se mere alfaaz na nikle 
Mere apne bhi kuch khaas na nikle 
In chaar diwari ke ghar me yaaro!
Suna yahi aksar ki aawaz na nikle. 

Kabhi samajhne me khud ko 
Aur samjhaane me apne 
Ek baar bhi vo bekaar na nikle
Jo zindagi bhar rahe sath mere 
Badkismati se koi mere yaar na nikle 
 Aaj labzo se mere alfaaz na nikle,
Jab apno ke liye dil se saaz na nikle.

Khoobsurat thi duniya khoobsurat tha ghar 
Kabhi haste hasate kat jaate the pehar 
Aaj sochke aksar hum jaate hain darr
Ki kahi mohabbat bhi inki ehsaan na nikle 
Ye Ghar mera zindon ka samshaan na nikle. 


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