This year has been tough… On everyone, but…
I don’t know, I think I need to move out of my country to find work, but, I’m 38, and I fear no one will hire an old fart like me.
I’ve been buying lottery tickets every now and then hopefully to get something… Anything. Not much, but, the outcomes at least pay for themselves.
Sometimes the lack of work puts me in the dumps, but… I steadily climb back to zero, at least to keep track on things. I’ve been working on my portfolio at least, to keep myself creative, and on the weekends I’m with a park renovation group, helping to remove weeds and keep green areas alive; it’s not paid, but, at least it gets me outside (as well as my dog, my other reason I have not kicked the bucket).
On a lighter note, I did get a response from a firm in Canada; they said this week might be looking into something, but asked me if I was willing to relocate, and to study some material they’d give me.
It’s been a week, so… But, I have hopes. If not, I will keep on getting up; it hurts, but, when I see that dog’s dumb smile when I notice she slept on my bed instead of hers, I can’t bring myself to end it all.
Just hang in there. Trust me you will get your hearts desire. Even if you do not get a call back from that Canadian firm,it is okay don’t lose faith god just has a better plan for you,just don’t stop trying. I am a firm believer of the fact that we manifest things in our lives all of them . You get in life only what your heart deepest desires are. Try reading this book it is called “The Secret” by Rohnda Bryne. Hope that helps 🔮
I’m 36 and I perfectly understand what it feels like.
I’m in the same boat of not having a job and being financially dependent.
From my experience I can just say that actually ending the life would not help you or anyone else.
It will be great if you say with yourself in a park or a place of nature and really spoke to your ownself.
Write down as to what you want on your day, in your life, what you do everyday day and what’s the difference in what you want and you actions for the day. Know how you can change that, what you need to do to change that. But most importantly, get back to the source of joy in your life. Create things that make you happy. Experiment and Experience new things.
Breathe, just breathe in life and exhale out sadness and depression.
Look at yourself in the mirror and talk to yourself, smile more. And take things at your own pace. Forgive yourself.
Hope this helps.
All the best, take care.
