This user here irritates me a lot.He is everywhere and in every post and asking the same question:Are you an old user?like main ignore krti hu but still irritating lagta wo bohot

You can check my replies dude I don't ask such questions 🙄

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this is probably just kinda of like a vent because im honestly feeling really sad://
so my online friend blocked me 2 weeks ago today.  i think i understand the reason why and to me it felt like it had nothing to do with our friendship being off it was just the fact she needed to work through things alone. so i spent the last 2 weeks constantly thinking about her and missing her like alot.  we used to spend literally all day together.  we were having 9 hour + long calls everyday for the last year and a half.  we were literally so so so close.  even though it hurt to say goodbye i just went with it for the 2 weeks.  i thought it would just be for a few days or something at first.  today i decided to message her on her other account (she blocked me on her main) and all i said was 'hi' and she replied with 'what do you want'  even though she was being rude i still tried really hard to keep the conversation going.  i think shes moved on and she dosent want this friendship anymore.  it hurts so much.  i cant get her out my mind.  and today i think ive realised that i have to move on.  it hurts.  going back maybe 4 months she was my reason to keep living.  i dont have one now.  it feels like everythings slowly falling appart.  almost like im losing everything ive ever cared about i think im only realising now that she was all i cared about, my reason to get up in the morning was to talk to her and have fun with her, when i used to have my thoughts of suicide i would always talk to her about them, she'd help me with them, and i cant talk to anybody about anything like that anymore. its like i dont even have a reason to get up everyday now,  i know this is kinda dramatic and i know its part of life its just how sudden its all happened.  it really hurts and im really struggling to move on.  she meant the world to me

idk if u could tell but i was crying so hard writing this XD 

Suicidal Ideation

I am at a very tough phase in my life since the past couple of years. And everyone keeps on saying "It only gets better" but I haven't seen any once of betterness. I have been so engulfed in my problems that when I don't have them, I don't even know what to do with myself and my mind always goes to this one conclusion "something worse is about to come at way" 
I am just tired. I wanna cry but I can't because I am on my way to somewhere. 

3am Thoughts

Its so tiring today i dont want to talk to anyone nor wanted to hear a single piece of sound today its just o irritating all i wanted to do is sit in a dark corner not a single piece of emotion no cry no smile no anger just blankkkkk

Anxiety

It seems like you need to be strong, smart and skillful to survive and get the things you need. I'm none of those things 

Life

What is the 1 thing that makes a relationship interesting to you? 🌼❤️
For me- when my guy's gonna fight for me 🧨 
(If someday I get a guy🙃) 

Love

I sometimes get overwhelmed by how minimal things are right now and they'll only get worse in the near future. 

Quick doubt! 

These questions have been bothering me a while, and I know I cannot be asking people of opinions or decisions I had to make. But, I believe that we all have walked different paths in life and somehow what I’m going through will be something that majority of us has faced. 

So here it go, last Christmas my best friend proposed me and I said yes. We started living together from Dec to Feb and in the month of February he relocated so it’s Long distance. 

After he moved things changed, he wasn’t spending much time with me, and that big change did bother me a lot. I tried communicating with him about what I was feeling but it always ended in a fight.But I always blamed the situations and I never left his side or even thought of ending the relationship. I mean it’s the long distance. 

Fast forward to 1 month of Long Distance. He took a trip with his friends ( I don’t know them ). And, while he was on the trip he didn’t talk to me and I’m completely ok with it but he didn’t call and wish me on my birthday. It would take what 2 min to call? I was waiting waiting and waiting. And when I called to ask him about it he said he couldn’t call me. I was upset but I let it go. 

Next day, he said he wants to end things bc he cannot be in a relationship right now bc of had financial issues with family, he needs to figure out his life and so on. I was so hurt and my mental health was down. I couldn’t sleep or eat, I’m not being productive all day. I felt like I was easy to give up, I felt used and betrayed and a lot more. 

I always had hope that things will work out I understood he was stressed he blocks and then unblocks me. It’s a never ending cycle. And I have fear of being abandoned, so every time he unblocks I used to tell him that it triggers me a lot and he blocks me anyway later. 

On going through all of this, today I noticed a picture of him with a girl, she was hugging him tight. I don’t normally have doubts or insecurities. But, he said he doesn’t talk to his parents , friends or anyone. He said he felt stressed on figuring out his life, he said he needs to prioritise himself and he can’t even spend 5 minutes of his day talking to me. And I’m sure the picture was a recent one from the trip. 

I feel rejected and I also noticed that his best friend who was following me on Instagram has unfollowed and removed me from his followers list. Should I consider this as a official breakup and just move on? 

Breakup

The other dimensions, portals, life after death, reincarnation, spirits etc etc. Do these stuffs interest you?

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