Sad 

3am Thoughts

I'm gonna hide my demons from everyone the evil in my thoughts and still managed to not be revealed in my actions. Is it everyone like that or is it Just me who are many different person but one. 
Nobody understands i won't let anybody peek into the darkness of mine it will be with me forever .

Mental Wellbeing

All promises remain promise when you don't get a chance to prove yourself

Memories

Heyy!! 
Just wanted to vent out something bothering me for long... 
My friends... They are good, really helpful and care about me... 
But they sometimes, most of the time don't know when they end out hurting me... 
I have different ideologies and experiences than them, isn't it normal? People are different... But whenever I put forth my ideology, instead of giving it a thought they try opposing it by there ideology, and that okay , but the way they do that... I don't like it... Iam okay with their opinion but whenever I say I think this way, or keeps on arguing my opinion, they seem to get annoyed, and either starts laughing or leave the room... 
Even when I have to share something from my experience, something that usually happens with me, and if that doesn't match their experience or if that doesn't make sense to them, they just ignore it by laughing and saying she always say stupid things and never stops Arguing... 


Why would I stop?? I believe iam right... Cause i have experienced it... 
And sometimes I get so annoyed that I google if I made  any sense, and if  I find something relatable or justifying , I forward that to them... 
Instead of accepting I was right Or they were wrong they just say, she always has to prove her point... 
They do consider my perspective, when atleast one person from the grp says that happened with her too... That time all of that makes sense to them.. 

Recent times, this happens everyday... And iam really pissed... Sometimes I feel that I should say how I feel to all of them, but then again they are my friends and college is about to end in 2 months... 🙃🙃
What should I do to make myself calm... I don't like all of this... And if I say I felt bad, they be like, why, we didn't say anything ... I just want them to understand that iam not a fool and I have a different perspective... 

If I react iam rude... 

Frustration

A lot of people arent true to themselves. So, they cant be true friends either. 

Relationships

Earlier I used to think family would always unite with you no matter whatever the circumstances are and would always understand.
But guess what I was wrong now that I am well aware of the reality it hurts more than anything in this world.
When the people who created the chaos living in peace it hurts even more, when I shed tears everyday,pray to heal . The ones who framed me is laughing, living and I am suffering since months. It's not fair.

Hoping for justice and better days

If I feel like there is too much  going on and I just can't handle it on my own, I just want to express myself but can't and that makes me anxious

Anxiety

and then i realized that to be more alive

i had to be less afraid

SO i did it 

i lost my fear 
and gained 
my whole life

- Rudy Francisco 

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