This is what I wrote about my bf… I need help what do I do when I feel this way…
I’m so insecure, I look at my self different now. What if I’m not as pretty as her or as cool or nice as her. What if she’s better than me? All I’ve ever wanted was for someone to love me. But what if I’m not good enough…? What if he likes her more than me and just doesn’t want to hurt my feelings? I hate seeing him hangout with girls now because what if something happens… I won’t know… and I can’t do anything to stop them. They are 6 hours away… how am I supposed to know what’s happening… it’s been four hours that he hasn’t texted me and now he’s at a girls house… and won’t respond… what if he’s doing things with her…? I’ve sat here and cried for about 2 hrs now… I know he’ll leave me, everyone leaves me. I try so hard I’ve put some much effort into it. I know I’m not perfect or prettier than her but I just want you to know I really did try. I love you so much and care about you even more. It absolutely tears me apart to see you want someone else. I’m so insecure, I don’t even love myself anymore. I can’t stop crying I’m so broken. It hurts so much to see you want someone else. I’d do anything to be perfect and be skinny and pretty. I stopped eating so I could be skinnier because guys go for skinner girls because they are really pretty… well I’m not I’m just side trash. I want to be pretty so so bad.
Hate you,You’ve been loved for the way you’re ,you ain’t gonna change a shit except your stupid mind which is takin too long to find its way as together.
I’m skinny but i don’t feel much prettier than the others. I guess we need to love our self more ❤️
