this is weird, this is the first time in like 3 months i feel very unmotivated and just a feeling that nothing is going in the right direction. But, at the same time im convinced that im in a much better physical, mental, emotional state that i previously was. i am someone who loves himself to the core but at the same time i think sometimes i tend to push myself a lot. I know that im meant to do crazy things but i dont think i am putting enough effort and when i realize i am not i get sad. i know the solution is to work harder and inculcate discipline but its getting harder and i feel i fall into ruts whenever things get hard.