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This is deeply terrifying. When my dad asked me about my prospects of the future related to my career, I had no clue what to say because I feel so mentally drained. I have emphasised it several times before, but it all comes back to career for my parents. My dad thinks that since I’m doing nothing for my career since a year, he thinks if I feel marriage is on my card. I am 21 years old. This is a living nightmare. I don’t know what I feel anymore. And I don’t know why hurting myself is the only thought that pops up in my head when I’m faced with such situations.

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Anonymous

Heyyy. Please don’t hurt yourself. It’s ok to not have anything figured out. Why don’t you try and speak to them in a way that they can understand that you’ll need some time to get to a better place mentally, and that once you’re there you will know for sure what to do with your career. I know the mind tends to go more towards hurting ourselves just to feel something. Try talking to someone who cares about you, try going for a walk, try writing down your thoughts, try helping someone else out. Do little things that make you smile. You’ll be alright.

Hope this helps.

Anonymous

Thank you for your response. I have tried multiple times explaining my situation in an understanding way. But they always interrupt in between and feel there is something wrong with me and try to fix me. They get annoyed when I ask them to patiently listen to me. I feel so mentally drained that doing all the things you mentioned above seems like a mountain to climb.

Anonymous

Ok. So first since the issue is with your parents telling you that you should either do something with your career or they’ll get you married, rebel, tell that you’re not gonna get married Till you get to a certain age. Next, would you like to talk about why you are feeling mentally drained ? Talking It out sometimes removes all that’s clogged in our mind. If not, another thing I learnt about our mind today is that sometimes we’ve to go against our own thoughts.

Anonymous

Talking it out. I have always rebelled. But it is easier said than done. I fear that if I were to actually rebel when the situation arises, my parents will kind of abandon me or cut ties with me. I am a single child with no close friends or family. I have just my parents who I tried to make them understand of learning about mental health. I’m trying to accept the fact that they come from a different time, but I crave for mental support as I find it difficult to just storm through this tough time. Each time I try to write down my thoughts or meditate, I keep getting upset because of all the cloudiness in my head. Sometimes I don’t see any way out of this. I keep hitting rock bottom.

Anonymous

Did your parents tell you this? That they’re gonna abandon or cut ties with you ? If you don’t rebel, you’ll be stuck in a marriage where you don’t even know what to feel. What do you think is better ?

Your parents don’t have to understand about mental health, maybe they would’ve suffered through something too and for them the solutions were getting married, or making a baby. What they need to understand is the solutions they had are no longer acceptable to us, people from our generation.

I have been experiencing the same thing. Meditation doesn’t help, listening to songs doesn’t help, it all gets scary and completely hazy. I drowned myself in alcohol and drugs but I’ve been sober for 4 days (hopefully today I don’t do anything), so how I’ve been coping is, writing down something bad that I feel, and telling myself that I don’t want to feel like that ever again. The mind tends to look for solutions. Try this once maybe ?

Anonymous

And the mental support that you crave, you can always reach out to me or anybody else over here. If you want to, we can get in touch in a different platform.

Anonymous

I have been trying to write things down to understand it better but find it difficult to be consistent and often get confused in how I should express things down on paper. I am aware of the generational gap and I find it difficult to come to terms with accepting this fact. But your response made me feel a less miserable and I deeply thank you for that. I have been using this platform for so long and no one really followed up like you did. I would love to keep in touch with you :’)

Anonymous

I hope you continue to find the strength to cope up :) I hope I find my way too

Anonymous

Thank you :’) I may not feel it now but if those thoughts were to come again, I hope to remember your words and fight my way.

Anonymous

Okay what are you pursuing & What are you planning ahead?
You’re still 21 don’t worry abt it too much.

Anonymous

I’m in the finance field and I don’t know what I love doing because I’m constantly trying to fight depression. I feel mentally drained and difficult to focus on any task. I’m seeking a therapist and it seems to be having no impact on me. I don’t know how to find a way out of this endless spiral. Thank you for your concern though.