The space asks, ‘what are you feeling?’ I don’t know. Maybe I feel stupid and sad. Also, I feel like I am too bad for this world. Why do I feel all these things? Why do I feel all this jealousy and never ending competition? I have pushed all my friends away because of this. I was hurting them by showing off what I have, they were voluntarily/involuntarily hurting me in other ways. I literally no friend even to text to. I see people posting pictures with their friends, texting and replying back, I feel very lonely at that time. I wish I had someone to text and reply to? What made me this bad? How do I change myself? The medicines for brain made me feel dead. I no longer take them. I try to distract myself with something or the other, but for how long can you distract yourself?
Calm down. Breathe. Then let me know why do you feel so
I don’t know, I had a troubled childhood. People say it is because of that. I honestly don’t know. I wanna be good, I wanna make friends. I don’t know why can’t I make and keep friends. I just wish, I was good, I was better.
If you are open to make friends don’t they like to be your friend then?
Shaina 🌺 @shainaitis
Having friends is undoubtedly a pleasure in itself, but yk what? Enjoying your own company is really underrated. I know being lonely sucks at times. It does. But when you know that you cannot help it, thinking and regretting about everything will only make your condition worse.
Think about your family, how you have yourself and them! You can get ready, click pics, pamper yourself, go on solo dates, find new online friends, be you!
You don’t need to ‘distract’ but need to “accept” yourself! Get me?
How old are you
I totally agree with what you said. It’s just I have been dealing with Depression and Anxiety more than a decade. So, the accepting part becomes really difficult sometimes.
Land of Blues @landofblues
A lot of days that lacked human emotions anymore, where you wanted to hold on to someone, something for peace or love but that didn’t came either.
And then began the journey, of somehow feeling happiness, with that 100 dollar bag you bought. It’s a bad game.
believe me, your heart was not given for that. God didn’t make it that way.
Would beg you to come out of it, and enjoy silence. For a while. The feeling of ‘not being anything’. That’s where you can start.😊 If you wanna talk, I am here.
Maruti Marathe @maruti__15
Hello… Listen I had my best friend brake up 2 months ago and i also felt the same as you and I also pushed my all friends away and in order to move on I started educating my self like
0)Be alone for 6 months and upgrade yourself and meet hardly to others
1) Start workout and meditation
2)learn new things spend time with yourself
3)See podcatses read books
And you will automatically get new roads tine happy…
Omg exactly same situation like me … except my friends dont hurt me because there’s isn’t any … because of my studies i stopped all my distraction like social media friends party adventure…now its been 3+ years I’m completely alone and addicted to loneliness…i exactly feel the same what u just mentioned…even i didn’t realised that i got depressed, other people told me that …but one thing i wanted to tell you that uts been 2 years of depression and I’m still surviving…