Music

The moon in me finds a sky in you. 

3am Thoughts

Boring classes sleepy days and breezy weather ! 

Friends

I just wonder... How can you remember what some great person told about a certain term? Our book contains so many dialects or quotes that we need to mug up. Is that possible? A term is just defined in many other ways by different people. So is that really needed to mug up everyone's definition 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲😫

Exhausted

I don’t know if this is the place to go but I am having a bad time in my 25 year marriage and having health issues. Friends don’t have time 

Depression

Guys i really need help..
In 2021, i had panic attacks and started to become really anxious... It took me lot of brave and courage and i finally confessed to my mom that i needed help in November. My mom told this to my dad and then my dad start to mock me that im just acting childish because i wanna go back to my real home (im currently staying with my dad near his office place which is in different state). I told that i dont feel comfortable staying where im staying rn (my room always have very negative energy sort of feeling and i dont feel safe) and wanna go back to Mumbai but he made lots of excuses why not to go back. When every coaching started offline then also he didnt let me go. And i really LOVE my parents and really respect them but because i am becoming anxious day by day thats why i always say something very rude towards them. 
Recently, mostly like a yesterday, I was really hungry at midnight and my mom was awake. I told her this and she told me to boil some eggs. The eggs I boiled weren't fully boiled so i asked for help from her. She smashed those eggs on my plate and said that i cant cook or do anything. So i went back in my room and silently started to cry and started to say and imagine bad stuff happening to my parents (not very serious) but it was all because i was really angry on my parents. I then came here and shared little bit of stuff which was bothering me and slept when sunrised and sunlight came in my room bcuz i was feeling someone was there outside my window (maybe my imagination). When I woke up, my dad had very high fever like 102 or 103 with all COVID symptoms. He will go tommorow for COVID testing. I really love my dad but i never wanted to happen something like this during 3rd wave. He got COVID before too in Dec,2020 and his health wasnt really that great. Is this my KARMA?? I am legit crying while writing this much. I really dont know what to do now. Is this whole my fault!! 
HELP ME GUYS!!! 

Anxiety

I believe in "Safar khoobsurat hain manzil se bhi" (The journey is more beautiful than the destination) 

block life unblock deathमुझे मदद चाहिए l ज़ोर से हंसें


I think I’m a people pleaser because I’ve always thought and respected others emotions be it a stranger or someone I know.
I’ve always spent my time to help others, and thinking about how to make them smile but why doesn’t anyone care for me, no one asks me how I’m doing?
Everyone texts me when they need help from me.
Sometimes I feel that I’m the ugliest because I’m shy, emotional, sensitive, introvert, I’m good at faking smile and say that I’m okay even though it’s breaking inside, I cry when I’m alone, I don’t bear to hurt others even if I end up being hurt in the end, I’m so childish that I even read the funeral poem for a bee that died in my room as she hit the window hard.
I easily get traumatized if I see real violence .
I know I have worst personality but I’m also a human being, why don’t others care for me and I’m the only one who suffers, why I’m God’s favorite child in sufferings.


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