The guy who has girflriend is too kind to me.. The problem is before some time he told me he liked me and if we wanted to be together.
I said I was not ready. Later I realized actually i have strong feelings towards him. But it's been around a month since he has a girflirend. Despite that fact, he is still showing affection (for example today he hugged me). It's so difficult for me, it makes me so confused and sad at the same time..like, am i viewed as a friend now? Or why is he keeping being like that... What should I do? 

Sometimes I think maybe he still has feelings for me that is why he can not stop himself. I'm probably wrong. Right? 

Those are hormones not feelings most probably 

I'd rather he did not to those things at all. But I just don't know how to act. Like shoukd i tell him it's wrong? (we meet everyday because of work) 

Confusion

Yesterday was awful.
I felt so bad that I thought I was going to crawl out of my own skin.
I was disgusted with myself.
I matched with someone online. We chatted for a few weeks and met for tea and a walk a few days ago. I felt we really vibed. We had a lot to talk about and I felt at ease with him. He seemed really into me, and I was shocked that he seemed to have manners. I asked him why he was on dating apps. He said he wanted to go on a few dates and see where things go. I was happy to hear this as everyone else just wants fwb. I stayed over Saturday night; on Monday he text me to say he can't see it going any further.
I probably should be thankful I even got a text. 

Anxiety

It's been 4 months since we broke up and I've moved on for sure. I knew we were gonna break up tho. On top of that it was u who broke up and now u want me back again. Whyyyyyy😭😭😭. I can't hurt myself all Over again😩💔. I'm numb n I don't even feel the love. It was just attachment which kept us going for like 2 years. We both know we don't love each other still u want me get back with u. U cheated on me too💔🥺 I've forgiven u for all that but It doesn't mean I'll forget everything and get back with u. U don't even treat me well. And also we r toxic for each other 😩

Boyfriend

So he's been callin' me and today I didn't get the call on time so I've called and now I'm regretin' I think should've wait for his call.. attachment sucks

Love

My bf’s ex always tried to text my bf and acted like she was doing him a favor to connect him with other roommates (my bf and his ex are living together as roommates with other two roommates bc they are in a friend group). He realized her problem that she tried to be close to him, and he did not like her, but it’s really annoying to observe what that girl has been trying to do. She also tried to hold my bf’s hand when he was drunk when they broke up, and a friend spoke up about her inappropriate action. Idk what exactly I am feeling, but seeing what she has been up to makes me and my bf uncomfy. 

Frustration

I thought I'd never message him again. But today I did. And he didn't have time for me. Now I feel so stupid. 

So I was this heartwarming show and the protagonist who has suffered a lot of toxicity by his previous boyfriend, ends up with a psychological problem. He then further, leaves that toxic boy and was able to find someone who really cares for him and loves him for who is he. His new boyfriend is not annoyed by his constant want to be sure of everything. I just kept thinking how lucky the protagonist is to find someone like his new boyfriend (well technically his life partner 😉) who takes him in sickness and health and is so open for towards his love for him
You know I completely blame the show for raising my standards for love. On a bit more serious note, I can’t help but feel so weird and alone. My sister has had boyfriend for 7 years, my crush has a girlfriend, my way older crush has a girlfriend and is living his best life in New York, my much previous crush has a girlfriend too, and all that. 
I just can’t help but think that, don’t we all deserve good things? 
I have had very rough couple of years and I just can’t help but spit at my luck. It has not been going well - personal, social, emotional, professional, health, money wise
I don’t know, I guess this is just the way I feel













3am Thoughts

It's been one year and I still miss my ex what should I do

Relationships

Was in a relationship some time ago.. It was toxic.. Broke up.. Moved on... Said yes for arranged marriage. 
Now marriage is getting fixed
Mom knows had a bf before and she doesn't want me to EVER say this to my future husband. 
What she doesn't know is that I was sexually active with him. 
So should I share my past relationship status with my soon to be or not? 
I am scared that even if he is ok with this his family won't be. 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts