Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Tbh every time I get the chance to meet or talk to a guy I visualise him if he could be the one. I don’t assume if he likes me but since I don’t like wasting time, I contemplate if he’s worth talking to as days go by. Reason is, I don’t want to share my life stories to someone who will just pass by. I have a lot to do. I have the habit of categorising people and I like straightforward people. People who knows what they want because I don’t. I don’t like mind games because it messes up my decisions. I wanna know what page they are and if we can meet halfway. If not, then I’ll leave - that easy. I have this rational mind that everyone is just ‘ok’, everyone is the same, I can talk to everyone, no one will and can harm me so I treat them the same. When a guy tells me he likes me and or I feel that he’s starting to like me, I disappear. It’s not that I’m not ready but I’m not willing and I know I can’t reciprocate the feeling so it’s better to remain as friends. Idk how I do it but I have ways to make and tell them that I want to keep them only as friends.

But this time, I found comfort and peace.