Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment, until it becomes a memory.

3am Thoughts

I Wish That You Would Stay In My Memories
But You Show Up Today Just To Ruin things.

We all are forgetting to live the moment in a rush to make it a memory. We keep clicking, posing and showing as if we had lived every bit of that moment where as we have skipped the very instance. 

Clip photos to make memory and not lust. And live those moments first, then click it.

Life

To whomever it may concern,
You are about to overcome something you have been dealing with. Your mind and heart will be soon at peace again. The weight is being lifted off of you right now. Breathe through it. Be patient about it. Trust that you will make it. Everything will be okay
Love & strength to you.💛



Affirmations

Here we go again 😁

Every cycle comes to an end, but the pain of the unavoidable end doesn't hurt. At least not as much as it hurts to know that moving on to another phase in my life means leaving you behind, not that I want to but is almost a defined fact that soon enough you will be just a memory, a familiar name from those good old days.
Maybe it’s for the best, maybe it means it’s finally time to leave behind all the unresolved feelings that your name evokes deep inside me.
But it still hurts.
And I’m not even sure why.
Maybe because I love you, or have loved you somewhere along all this years. I don’t know for sure.
Maybe because no matter how much things changed you were always there, a strangely stable presence for a somewhat weak relationship.
But it hurts especially because of all the times I failed to leave you behind in the past, even though I always knew it was for the best.
Nothing lasts forever so how could I expect us to? But you were there, and every step I took hoping to get away I always ended up closer to you.
I don’t even know what you are to me, especially because I have no idea what I am to you.
And even if I try to hide it, I still hope you know that you occupy a big space in my heart, and I truly hope that there’s a space for me in yours.
Above all the biggest pain comes from knowing that in ten or some years, I may hear your name, and it may even sound familiar, but I may also not. And then we wont be friend, colleagues or god knows what, we will be strangers.
And then I will finally have let you go.
Even if it hurts.
Even if it breaks my heart.
Even if you never find out (either because I never understood or because I never told you) how much you mean to me.
And that’s why I need to let you go.
Because my head can’t be forever hung up on what we could have been if I had at least gathered up the courage to tell you.
But I didn’t, and I am still deeply attached to you.
Because no matter what ups and downs we might have had, I will be forever grateful to have had you by my side for so long.
And I hope someday I can tell you all of this.
I also hope we can have a proper goodbye, because hopefully the pain of leaving you will hurt a little less if I have the conscience that I at least said goodbye.


Relationships

Maybe we will meet again!
Maybe we will laugh again!
Maybe we will share the same table again!
Maybe we will read each other thoughts again!
Maybe we will not break each other’s heart again!
Maybe we were meant for each other!
Maybe maybe maybe!
Maybe it will happen someday!
Just not today!
Maybe it will be some other universe! 
Just not here!
Just not here!!!

I deserve someone who actually gives a fuck about me because I've spent my entire life making other people happy when all they did was leave. 

- Ishita Khanna

It’s crazy I was yur everything to now I mean nothing … I thought something was wrong with me … but I guess love didn’t work out That way…..you keep on doing things that hurt me, shows how little I mean to you. we both know you don't love me anymore! it was a dream that didn’t come true! I trusted the wrong person with my heart! I was a fool for loving you this much! You never wanted this to work . You find every way possible to be unhappy with me . I can't keep giving you my heart to just be played with . You will never love me the way I love you  it truly hurts so much I dont ever wanna love anyone one again my heart is so cold . I'll never be the same .. I was just something to pass yur time . Thanks for showing me how much I ment to you🚮🙍🏻‍♀️💔😣 Somebody will love me for me and all of me . And deserve my love you didn't appreciate it or value my love you NEVER APPRECIATED ME OR ANYTHING I DID !!!  Why keep playing with my heart and head ?  I'm not a board game I'm a human with feeling and emotions . you talk to all these other people and talk to them the way that you should be talking to me you give them all yur time it made me feel so Insecure But now my conference starting to build back up I know that I'm the shit and iknow I'm a dope Ass person so you can take this L  .  If you can't learn to appreciate me give me your time and treat me the way that I should  be Then there's nothing between us  . I'm destined to be something great so I'm done holding back and waiting for you realize Wht I am and what I will become . You wanna leave and be done fine !!!! somebody like me that's never really had anybody to ever love them Looks at love as the most beautiful thing in life Something that I always wanted and dream of having. . I didn't have my dad and my family treated me like shit Every person I was  with treating me like shit or hit me or didn't want me because I was fat Have you ever been raped multiple times to where I don't trust anyone but  i looked at you different... that's why this hurts so much I thought I was a model the way you looked at me . I never thought that I'd lose  because you .. I thought this was forever every time you look me in my eyes and said you want me forever I thought it was real I thought I found the love I dreamed of . Just to turn out to be another chapter. I just want that fairytale ending that every little girl seen on tv . When will it be my turn? I sit here today and wonder why do deserve all this pain and heart break why is everything always took from me why does every one I get close to always leave ? Why am I not enough why am I not beautiful enough why can’t I be as beautiful as her thoughts that always went in in my head I compared my self to everyone else but never seen the beauty in me .. beauty is just looks it’s so much more so this is the last time I’ll let anyone take me for granted I’m so much more . So walk away give up leave know don’t ever look back my love is not something to be played with it’s to be Cherished and valued so goodbye don’t FUCK up my peace and happiness Cus U can’t find it in yourself ….  I try to be Everything you wanted me to be I tried to change myself Why should I have to change myself when I thought that you love me for me it turns out that all your words are just empty lies  you never wanted to value me no sort of  away you use me and tell i had nothing left .  But you always chose the easy way out to leave and walk away So I give up why should I fight for someone that’s not willing to fight for me I have a different kind of love out here and I just don’t believe that you can handle that I try to do everything that I possibly can for you to show you how much you mean to me but I just meant nothing but you keep fill my head with empty lies and promises When were you ever going to be the man that u told me you would be. Claim how you want  more in life but I don’t see you doing anything to change it  you never actually try to do that with me it’s just not equal it’s not even about the money it’s about the effort. you had no effort into me so now I know my worth and I know somebody will be honored to have my love and me as a partner as a best friend So this is goodbye I love you more than anything in life but you don’t love me  so these are my final words I wish you would’ve seen what I seen in you in me . But you chose always think the worst of me so goodbye the one person that I thought was my  forever
    -I had enough Dafukk-

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