Sometimes I lay in bed and reach for you but you’re not there. Sometimes I dream about you, I hold you and can feel you. I yearn for you but can’t have you. 

I’m sorry, from the bottom of my heart, with every ounce of blood beating through my body, pouring from my soul…I’m sorry. 

If I could turn back time none of it would happen and you’d be here lying next to me…

Yes, my ex. I just feel like if she felt the same way she would of reached out. I don’t think I can handle the rejection either…

Breakup

dancing is a very nice healing technique. music is overrated. :)

Mental Health

Come fukking dance with me!!!! 😎😈😏⚡🔥🤩🤪


Listen to Need You by DILLONFRANCIS on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/S1g3Z

Happy

you are carved into my soul
and etched into my thoughts 
once we were a whole
but now we’re torn apart

you are everywhere
and nowhere at the same time
i wish i could say i didn’t care
but here i am writing a silly rhyme

i’ve moved on,
found someone new
i love him so much
but he isn’t you 

i gave him all the things
i wanted to give to you
it’s a strange concept to comprehend 
after all that we’ve been through

i wake up in someone else’s arms now
and i’m guessing you do too
but something in me still yearns
and wishes that it weren’t true

that ill wake up from this dream
with you by my side
you’ll hold me tight as you did before
as impossible as it might seem





3am Thoughts

....MY HEART WILL GO ON.....


You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart and
My heart will go on and on

Poetry

Hey girl, are you there?
I’m drunk and alone at the fair
I miss your texts
I miss your xes +( in my head 😸)
You made me hate The Cure on cassettes

I wanna go home now
‘Cause I’m feeling old now, away from you
It’s summer and I’m cold now
Everyday having déjà 
Maybe I am better with you
Summer time, feeling so blue
She don’t know what I’ve been missing and
I’m not one for superstition but
Maybe I am better with you

Hey girl, I realize
You’re so cold, but an angel in my eyes
I’m such a mess, yeah I confess
I’m still in love with the girl in my head

I wanna go home now
‘Cause I’m feeling old now, away from you
It’s summer and I’m cold now
Everyday having déjà vu

Maybe I am better with you
Summer time, feeling so blue
She don’t know what I’ve been missing and
I’m not one for superstition but
Maybe I am better with you

Maybe I am better with you
Summer time, feeling so blue
Maybe I am better with you
Summer time, feeling so blue
Maybe I am better with you
Summer time, feeling so blue
Maybe I am better with you
Summer time, feeling so blue

And then I got you off your knees
Put you right back on your feet
Just so you can take advantage of me

Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there
Feeling so high but too far away to hold me!!!



Adulting

A Wanderer's Song
by
John Masefield

 	
A wind's in the heart of me, a fire's in my heels,
I am tired of brick and stone and rumbling wagon-wheels;
I hunger for the sea’s edge, the limit of the land,
Where the wild old Atlantic is shouting on the sand.
Oh I’ll be going, leaving the noises of the street,
To where a lifting foresail-foot is yanking at the sheet;

To a windy, tossing anchorage where yawls and ketches ride,
Oh I’l be going, going, until I meet the tide.
And first I’ll hear the sea-wind, the mewing of the gulls,
The clucking, sucking of the sea about the rusty hulls,
The songs at the capstan at the hooker warping out,
And then the heart of me’ll know I’m there or thereabout.

Oh I am sick of brick and stone, the heart of me is sick,
For windy green, unquiet sea, the realm of Moby Dick;
And I’ll be going, going, from the roaring of the wheels, 
For a wind’s in the heart of me, a fire’s in my heels.


May this heart learn to break quieter this time, as I let you go again tonight. May these bruised hands learn to tremble less, as they find their way out of the silhouette of your ghost. This time, may this soul learn to fill the void in these veins, as I look for you no more when the Sun comes.”
— Lukas W

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