Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

sometimes i feel like a bad omen. like, every time i come into someone’s life, something bad happens to them which makes us closer. it makes me feel horrible, i don’t wanna be the reason people i care about go through hardship but it feels unavoidable. it seems like conflict follows me wherever i do and i dunno what to do, i’m scared to make new friendships or join groups because that usually causes some sort of instability with the other people there. i’m tired of it, i hate feeling like i’m the reason things fall apart