Some say world ends in fire and some say in ice. But for me, I end in your warm hugs or in your cold heart.

Inspired Robert Frost.

Thanks as said modified Robert Frost. ❤

Love

There's a horrible feeling in my chest whenever something goes wrong. I always used to keep it in, not telling anyone because I hate showing anyone I'm vulnerable. My mom is supportive but I hate that she has to be strong even if it might devastate her. I feel almost always on edge, stressed, anxious, angry at myself for not being good enough. I always question if I deserve anything or anyone's support. I always compare myself to others, hating on myself. I cry it out and it gets better for a while, but that feeling never goes away. I think I need help, but don't know whats wrong with me. 

Anxiety

Feeling restless without any reason

Confusion

Am feeling not that good physically and emotionally there are two sides where one is above the other which is saying don't do it, you have already ruined and lost almost everything almost already in your life and on other side which is not dominating my soul coz am trying my best to let it to is saying one last time just tomorrow a lil dose n u will not suffer from the temporary pain where my nerves inside of my both wrist are fighting for a clean pass of blod flow in my body and same is going on with my bones of ankles (all the joints part) which is allowing me to sleep and waters are rolling frequently from eyes if I try to close them, and when i switch on the fan I feel cold so i try to a sheet I feel warm again and when I switch off my fan i too hot and get wet all sweat and with that i get frequent shake of whole body with goosebumps but still am alive and I don't think this can kill right. So that's exactly how am feeling right now am suffering for being a victim of heroine addiction. 
I want to be clean and want to live this beautiful to fullest being clean am tired of it. 

Addiction

Overwhelmed. Yesterday my boyfriend told he likes something that goes against my values, there is so much going on inside my head and this made was the last thing I expected. I can't stop thinking about it and I should be focusing on myself, on my studies so I not fall behind. I had no motivation all throughout the year and now all the things I posponed are coming back, it's suffocating me. I don't have time to think about what he told me, but I can't stop thinking of it ... How should I react to that? What do I say? If I fall behind people around me will be dissapointed ... I had been drowned on my own thought playing videogames all day, everyone watch me ... they even are starting to question my lack of motivation, I know they are doubting if I really like the career ... I feel like I don't know me anymore, I portray myself as a totally different person. But it's hard to me to explain how I feel, to find the words to express all what's happening inside my head. I feel that if I not speak up for me and for what I believe I'm betraying myself, this is about everything not only what my boyfriend confessed to me. I overthink too much, I over do myself to much, I try to be better  I try to do as many thing as possible ... and it all ends up coming back to me ... and I feel overwhelmed ... and I end up doing nothing about it. I lock myself in my head and my own thoughts so I play videogames to keep distracted or I try to be constantly talking to someone to keep acting like this person who is tough and has everything under control ... 

Overthinking

When I say little things aren't little I really mean it...like I was studying and few minutes ago I looked at litchi which is stored at a basket on the top of the fridge I wanted to eat it but I thought ab kaun jaye so I just let it and kept on studying and then few minutes later my mom came with a bowl in her hand which was filled with litchis...she qas watching me the whole time I was eyeing the litchis lol....the way I felt that moment is unexpressive...the thing that there are people who cares for you...their are people who loves you...you just need to look around and notice the little things that they do for you...you'll feel happy believe me you will...sorry for writing this much...I'm just happy and I want y'all to be as well🥰

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