'Social evolution’:A paradigm shift in dealing with our emotions.

Nothing really gets solved when we walk around in a maze full of noise and opinions- most of which, aren’t even our own.

You.

You matter. I know you want to be there for other people. I know you care about them.
But do you care enough about yourself?
I don’t blame you;
I think it’s just a new way of adjusting to life.
People these days are running around asking each other questions for which no one has answers.

“Here! This is my problem and because you’re my friend, you need to solve it.” gets an answer of “Okay, sure! But first, listen to my problem, it’s more important.”
It makes no sense.

You can’t go about fixing people, holding them in your embrace hoping they don’t fall apart as you continue to.

Some days my sadness drags me through the doorways of hell, as I want to keep falling asleep to the sound of music that keeps weaving magic in it’s attempt to silence the voices in my head.

Some days I wish I could dissolve out of my body, disappear and teleport to the future to take a photograph of a hopeful better time as a token of reassurance that it’s all going to be fine.

I’ve had quite some spare time to give time to the person I am, my identity. Granted, it’s been quite dreary and dull but I’m slowly beginning to like myself. Trace over and over the fact that I’m beyond chronic illnesses, they are not my definition. I choose who I am. I’m grateful for this one existence that perhaps I didn’t ask for, but I have anyway and I am bent on making my time here count and experience the things I have always conceptualized. I may be more emotional than I had prepared for but that just adds to being me and I’m open to my feelings, it’s euphoric.

As I continue to not let my issues give a set defination to my entire being, I hope you do too.

We’ll make it out of this seemingly endless cycle of unprecedented sadness.

Let’s hang onto hope.

If you ever feel like it’s all coming down, and it might as well is the end. It isn’t. You control you. You define who you are.