So when my time comes forget that wrong that I've done help me leave behind some reasons to be missed.. don't resent me and when you're feeling empty then keep me in your memory and leave out all the rest 🥺

Hallucination

I just feel super invalidated. One of my jaw popped and I suspect it was because of my habit of biting my blankets everyday for comfort and my jaw got tired overtime. The thing is, I feel like my parents doesn't seem to care about my mental wellbeing and just brought up something else that could cause my urge to bite stuff (they said it was a symptom of worm congestion in my gut).fact or cap doesn't matter, that statement just made me feel super invalidated. My mental wellbeing has been deteriorating since I started online school. When I confronted my parents about this and asked them whether the things I'm going through are valid or not, they just said something like "well buddy, I cant say its valid or not". Maybe they're right, but my jaw literally popped! I thought that's enough "injury" to fulfill my validation. I've also had some stress related symptoms like Hives, skin picking around my lip area, heck I even suspect that I have ADHD and movement disorders. Some of the symptoms I've had are being messy, forgetful, restlessness and fidgeting, impulsiveness, and more! I've also confronted this to my friends, but they're no different than me. They're as broken as me and didn't give me any useful solutions. I can't get help because I'm still a freshman in high school and all of my pocket money are beyond my control. I just want validation.
sorry It's too long and makes zero sense I tend to babble nonsense when I'm trying to describe my feelings :,)

Anxiety

Love to be around 
But it's toxic to be
Idk what is right
And what is wrong
Everything ceased
Nothing have to lose
Not eventually me
And not even breath. 


3am Thoughts

Okay this is gonna be a long post with some ground realities, so the language won't be fairy tales and I feel this is necessary for the young folks who are gonna sit for entrance exams. 
First let me start with few truths for entrance exam kids. 
Your main focus should be to crack entrance exams. You got to make a simple plan and a schedule to follow to support your plan. Strategize your target score on realistic grounds and work on it. Sounds good right, now here's the distractions that will come in this 
1. Friends - yes, friends are a distraction. Especially those who are not serious about entrance exams. You don't wanna be those guys who don't study but chill and waste time around. ( If you're the time pass friend, pls don't bother the serious guys, you might as well just focus on passing school and enjoy this phase, no issues with that, completely fine, just don't bother the serious guys.)  Only have like minded friends who work hard and help you . (Don't go for toxic friends too, who demoralise or make fun of you, stay away from them too)
2. Gf/ bf. My recommendation in short : Don't get into relationship. Just simply don't. You'll save yourself from a lot of trouble. Some might think, but 'what about crushes?' , well here's a fact. You and your crush most probably won't see each other after your exams. (You mostly end up going in different places , same holds true for your friends in schools and coaching too ) so don't bother too much about them. Just simply don't. If you already are in a relationship , well , truth be told , chances are you would end up having a break up. So don't give it much importance. 
Learn to control your emotions properly in this stage. It will help you life long. 
3. Not interested in studies and phone : I have a simple solution to this. Just study for 2 months seriously. Start small, solve problems. If you get stuck, get help and learn some more. There's a simple trick to motivate yourself. Reward with a break day every month.  Also , everyday, for an hour, do what you want. No studies. 
This pretty much discuss major distractions. Also yes parents ka and peer pressure exist . It's okay to feel pressure. That one hour break everyday is to release that pressure. I would recommend you play some sport but then again, it's a personal choice and do what relaxes you the most . Music, dance , light reading anything but study.

Note for people who took a drop : don't let the pressure get to you. You made a brave choice. Be proud that you dare choose to drop for dream. Not many have that guts to do. You will do fine . 

Exam

Idk 
If I can survive this anymore.

Life

Stress belongs to me

Some good qnd affordable  psychologists  in mumbai !! 

Other

My mind is constantly in chaos. Sometimes, I feel like I am slowly losing my sanity for this world 😬😵‍💫

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