Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

is it so? but now I think that I don’t deserve happiness or maybe I don’t want to be happy because every time when I am delighted something terrible happens and that makes me sad

I think i have a note i wrote sometime back that you might like

I still ask those questions to myself i once told you all about. Comeon i can’t be that specific, you know how careful i am about sharing my thoughts with others, i know you think i am just a sad soul roaming around with a mask that keeps falling off randomly, but i wouldn’t even want to change any bit of these lines as they make me realise how wrongly people could even think about someone who isn’t afraid of embracing their dark side, to the extent where they are actually able to smile while listening to all those sad lyrics only because i could feel what those words do mean, but that doesn’t mean it makes me happy at all, but more like making me fall in love with the state of my own melancholy. I know you would never agree with me, how sadness could help you find your peace, but that is the only reason my smile is most real while i am crying silently.

Exactly that’s what he told me… He expected me to be happy even when i didn’t want to… He got tired of me when he was the one who told me show that side to him… he never understood that i didn’t wanted him to help me all i wanted from him was to support me when i am weak… he started ignoring my texts when i used to send him about my feelings and only replies to the one that had something good… he came to me because he thought i am a sorted person and when i told me i am not he made me feel like i am not even human being even when i told him all about my terrible past he told me that i don’t have reasons to be depressed… the only thing i wanted him to understand was that i do have reasons for everything and i can’t be happy everytime he wants me too but he didn’t understand any of them… and made me look like a fool in my own eyes

I’m so sorry you had to go through all that 🥺 you can always share what’s on your mind or what you’re feeling here okay? I will try to support or atleast listen to you whenever i see your post :) you have us by your side okay?

thank you so much

Not needed, happy to help :)

he told me that I can’t build any kind of relationships with anyone because of my depression…