So..not quite sure how to open up like this to a platform but maybe I wanna let it all out.. it's a hell lotta burden.. I'm gonna have my ISC in one month and this is me who can't focus on anything... recently I've had a bad conversation with my best friend..a real bad one..and then there's no one I can talk to regarding what's going on in my life...I don't have anyone to call my family maybe I have but at the same time I don't... I'm just to stressed about everything that's going on around me...and I have no Idea how to deal with it all by myself... it's weird.. everything is weird actually...

I have real good friends to look upto..but at the same time I don't..idk it's complicated

Hey chill
Maine bhi last year hi boards diye hai and fun fact I was from ISC too
Trust me it's all fine 
Abhi bhot kuch dekhna hai dost wgera aayenge jayenge but few will always be there for you! You just have to look for the real one

Anxiety

Yes I'm 19 now and no I'm not lucky, i am unlucky yes most of people say I'm lucky and everytime they just see I have advantage in my life ,
Yes i have advantage but still I'm not lucky or anything
People of my age are in 2nd year of clg rn 
But you know I'm facing the problems more than them 
Ssly I'm mentally not ok 
Always overthinking about future and myself how I'm gonna make it 
Everyday i think should i quit and at same time i say no 
I have to surpass my limits if i want to be that future person i need to work now
Sometimes I'm ok with rain sometimes i just hate rain so much
I'm not connected with my friends now days 😅
Ig they are going through same situation maybe 
Idk what is this feeling, like sometimes i really like who i am and sometimes i  just hate being myself




Life

The moral of this story is that no matter how much we try, no matter how much we want it...some stories just don't have a "happy ending".

3am Thoughts

When will it get better

I'm very fed up of my life and I feel trapped and think dying is the only way out .....no one around me try to atleast understand my emotions and care what is going on with me.
I'm very tired of my life and my situation.....I have tried finding solutions and even telling someone about what's going on with me but it's hasn't worked.....I have even told my parents but for them I think word like depression doesn't exist....and I've reached this situation because of them only ..for them only big name and society exist and there is nothing more precious for them than their reputation.....I feel very lost and think I can't survive for much time.

Depression

Why won’t it just stop??


I don't know how to pull myself out of my depression and everything that has happened this past year has made me isolate myself even more. I am stuck in a job that I hate and literally try to find every excuse not to go. I have one more year but I feel like I can barely continue for one more week. I don't talk to my therapist anymore because I feel like I am being weak and just chasing myself in circles when I talk like nothing she says helps anymore. On top of all that I recently had a miscarriage and I don't know how to deal with it. I keep telling everyone I am fine but I am hurting and I am trying not to fall back into that dark space in my head but it's happening and I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to push everyone away but I don't like being around anyone and have lost all motivation for everything. Please any advice would really help.


Me struggling to tell how I feel because every time I do they made it seems like Im crazy and too sensitive... 

Annoyed but Ambitious… looking… feeling… creating… growing… aspiring.
Weird combination? Eh, I guess not!! Feeling all type of ways is normal ❤️

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