Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

so my brother’s kind of a big deal. he’s good at studies, sports AND extracurricular activities. but I’m happy for him although a little jealous. the thing that really gets to me is that he has topped all his exams, got admitted to a reputable college and has won numerous scholarships. kind of the star-child. i feel left out and dumb, mostly. my boards are due next year and i am so stressed. i know i will disappoint my mom and family members and not only them, his teachers and friends also count on me to score above 95% i always feel compared to him and i have been avoiding it for as long as i could but things are getting serious. numerous private tutors, barely any free time and ofcourse, the pressure. i do not want to know what is going to happen if i don’t score as much as they want me to. i know i could study harder but it just doesn’t happen. i have studied the best i can and even then, i can only score 85% (which, btw, is a horrible percentage according to my mother)