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doctorswift

So my 15 days of Covid icu shift and my third covid rotation in this year and my 7th covid rotation since last year has ended.
I am left with bitter sweet feelings and lots of trauma. I can still hear icu sounds even when I am not there. It’s just… it has changed me as a person. Now I am a person with some mental health issues. I still see visuals or see random faces of patients or memories which make me tear but I guess this is something I’ll work on for next few months. I might still get placed on covid duties again in a week or so . Lets just hope for the best though. For what I have seen do far , there’s nothing that makes me surprised. Life is really unpredictable . If you are close to your loved ones just give them a hug. Because really health is wealth. When your in icu it doesn’t matter if you’re a millionaire you will still gasp the same as a poor man and everyone just goes in the same body bag.
Be grateful and appreciate those who love you.
Sigh. I miss my family so much to live far away from my parents and my brother his wife and son, Is a lot sometimes. But it’s okay.
I am glad I saved a lot of patients and saved some families while staying away from my own

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Anonymous

A big bow to u and thanks a lot for ur service . Can understand ur situation but kudos to ur spirit of making it through this tough times . More power and strength to u

doctorswift

Thank you 😊

Anonymous

Just wanted to say thank you, thank you so much ❤️
My father is working in a covid hospital too and it’s been a month he’s away from us

doctorswift

Tell him that I appreciate his efforts ! We are in this together.

Anonymous

Yes❤️

God bless you precious gem
You are going to get the best of the best ❤️😘
Sending you virtual hug 🤗
Please take care of yourself
I know it’s hard but be everything is going to be ok soon 💜
We are blessed to have you
Keep smiling ❤️❤️
And please keep posting here everything you want to share we are always with you 💕💕

Anonymous

Are you an intern or mbbs or MD or MDS

doctorswift

I am a resident doctor completed Mbbs and internship , currently in second year of MD (3years )

Anonymous

I can see you using this app like an open diary . That’s good anyway . I bless you peace .

doctorswift

Yes , it was getting so so so bad.
And I honestly don’t have anyone to talk to. There isn’t much help available for doctors. And there’s not much time for me to actively seek therapy . Like after 10hour shifts you just want to crash in your bed and it sucks to live with constant trauma . But I found this website and I can just talk about my day and decompress myself.

Anonymous

Well I am a bds final year student waiting for my results as soon as we become interns . We are assigned a hospital to join duty in covid . I see you’re tired and scared . Well now I’m too but basically you have much work to do . We’ll be under guidance so I’m bit relieved 🤪 well this is a good site for stress reliving . Anyway take rest . Cyaa

doctorswift

Work load won’t be bad , you might not even be placed for covid duties. All the bds doctors are already taken off duties now as the cases are declining rapidly. So just chill . You won’t have to work unless there’s a third wave.

Anonymous

Yaay that’s great news 😄

yennefer

Hey. You post intern or still studying? Tough times dear. Take care. Talk about it here. I usually come here if my brain gets psyched out n I need to talk in mid of this stress and studies and duty

doctorswift

I have already answered this above kindly check.:)

yennefer

I did. My friends and family members who are on covid duty instead of their respective depts are going through similar situation. Prayers and love to you. Keep yourself safe and take care💜