So it started with she falling in love with me and i was not sure at that time and then she started dating someone else and i started missing her so i told her that i have feeling for her then she didnt replied and her bf called me with me hurting her and then again she started acting that she was hurt but she love me and now its been 2 year since we talk but she still behaves as she has a heartbreak. it sound like bullshit i know but i do miss her sometime but only because i know she is dumbass, i dont want to talk to her 😓

Confusion

Its been a year,but I still miss her everyday.I miss her laughs.I miss that sound when she laughed.I miss joking with her.And I cannot talk about it to anyone because then everyone thinks I have become mad because it's been a long time and also because I was the one at fault she did the right one.I don't have the courage to message her because I am blocked on WhatsApp so I think it's not a wise thing to do.But still the chest is heavy,I have never felt this pain.I don't know what to do sometimes I think will she ever miss me and my friends say no because if she did she would have reached out atleast once.We met in this season only and whenever I go for a walk i remember every vibe but I still don't know why i fucked up.I don't know if I ever get out of this what is the meaning of getting over?I know this sound too stupid but I need to get it out that's why I am writing it out here
 

Breakup

I am a big big fool. I am angry on myself. My Ex comes to me every once in a while in month calls me and behaves she is very upset she left me and she is guilty all that. She talks on call for an hour after that when i text her for any emotional thing just to listen she disappears... i am a big fool. Why i receive her calls why the heck. I dont want to do this anymore.

Hey. Everyone . I had girlfriend which the relationship lasted for 4 years. And in Jan we had got broke up. Her only reason is that parents wont agree. She has blocked me eveywhere. When she feels sad she contacts me and disturbs me . I m trying to become stonger without her. Now in middle she is back and saying i wont be there so understand . And block me again. What to do with this. She had nice fun trip to goa and pondicherry . Now she says i dont have any friends. Im stuck in feelings . Any help

3am Thoughts

I don't know why i get sad and have mental break downs at night. I am crying now. I just remembered how my ex gf messaged me all the time when i texted. But now i am waiting till she replies all day. I wish the healing process was faster. 

My heart is heavy. Wish i could go back to the time i didn't know her. Not because i love her. But because maybe we both wouldn't have been in this pain if that happened. But i am grateful for all the time i spent with her. For every moment i shared. That's what keeps me going. 

I wish i could direct this pain and sadness to something good. Something productive. But i feel like my energy is draining.

Am i wrong to be yearning for her love still? Am i wrong to feel this way? Am i wrong for loving too hard?

I want ask the universe why this happened to me. But i don't know. This pain and sadness never seems to end. 

No matter how much i think that i would control messaging her, everytime she replies, i get excited. I forget everything and strat messaging. I forget always, that she also is trying to move on... I feel bad for being like this.

I used to be a very strong person. I don't know what happened to me. Love hurts. I feel sorry for myself. I want to take care of myself better. Love me better. But i feel like my life got just stucked. 

Feeling lonely. And sad. Crying in pain. Hoping a miracle would happen, tho deep down inside i know it's not possible.

Me(23M) and my girlfriend(23F) started dating 9 months ago.  We were PG mates. We finished our college 8 months ago. She's 700 km away from my home. Due to the long distance we kinda had a fair amount of bumps in our love life. Last October my dog got sick with CDV ( it's like AIDS for dogs, untreatable).  I was taking my dog for almost all the big veterinary hospitals in Chennai but nothing worked. Due to all the traveling I couldn't talk to my girlfriend. After a long heavy run I had to put my dog to sleep (euthanasia), It was the hardest choice for me. 
After that, for a week she and I connected to our love again. But this time I felt that she was kinda distant. I was really in a bad mental health cause of my dog's loss (she was my whole world). 
The second week I got a job in Assam, I desperately needed a break from my dog and my distant girlfriend so I took the job and went to Assam for 21 days. 
After coming back from Assam she was more distant from me. That made my mental health even worse. I kept asking her, she said she's fine. But I know she was not.  A month has passed. 
After that, this time I got a job for another state. And I told her to use this 21 days to see what went wrong in our relationship. She said okay.  While I was working on a job she was busy with her family gathering and trips and long bike rides.
 I returned on Feb 14 which was my birthday she didn't  reply to me. So I got mad and said some things which I'm not proud of. She got angry and said she needs one week of time. After a week she said again I need one week to think.
 I wanted to communicate with her for the whole four months but she always said TEXT ME. Always cut my calls. Avoided problem solving calls. 

Due to all the trips and bike rides she got a cold infection which put her into the hospital. Now she says, I will talk to you once I get to my home. 

Honestly guys, I don't know what did I do wrong with her ?. I apologized for my bad behaviour. I constantly overthink about her. All my friends say, try to be patient with her. But i don't know how ?? 

BTW, she was raised by good loving parents and I was raised by verbally abusive parents. I really wanted to create my own family with her. But it seems like I'm wrong.


Depression

here is my story plz help me, i could be long but i have said everything from my heart.,
I was 18 when I first met her, I was in school 11-12th standard, I totally loved her, she also loved me we both were in love and were ready to do anything for each other, we never touched each other, we just used to look at each other and that too 3 times in a day as I was in commerce department and she was in science, we were happy by this only when we go back to home from school we used to chat on mobile for hours and hours we were totally in love. and then something happens, when our school days were about to over I texted her that I need to talk to u she said ok, on the phone only we discussed our future she said whatever you want I am ready and we decided that ok we will do our college, get a job, talk to parents and get settled with each other, we both belong to a different society and that too from different state { in Indian society it matters} we both wanna marry each other. but after a month she came back from her one of her long-distant sisters love marriage and called me said u know I was in that marriage and it was hell for the parents of her sister they were crying that what she has done, family reputation has been thrashed, no one came from family,no one was happy etc etc. and she was sad thinking same will happen with us also, then I asked her what do u want she said no matter what she is going to marry me as she love me more than anything else and suddenly broke down by thinking about future, then we hang up, for days I was stuck in her words thinking again and again what she said bcz in my family it wasn’t going to be a big deal but for her family, it was a taboo, I started to think that bcz of me she will never going to be happy, her family will fell apart i cried for day that what to do i just cannot leave her, but with a heavy heart i called talked her that look this is truth that we love each other but i cannot see u unhappy bcz main purpose for marrying u is that i want every happiness on your feet and if i marry u like this u will never be happy she was just saying hmm hmm hmm, i cut the phone bcz i was about to broke down and eventually i did, i just cant say to her that let forget each other, then she texted me said r u ready to this ? i said how would i live without u, she said we will learn and that day we blocked each other from everywhere and i broked my sim card bcz i couldn’t control my self from calling her, then i moved to college, i was doomed I couldn’t sleep at night, my head always hurts, eventually i deleted every social media a/c insta,FB etc ,

And today its been 8yrs almost , i cannot change my self, i couldn’t sleep and my head still hurts, i don’t talk much, i hardly any frnds left, still i am not on any social media , man i am doomed , i cry once every month don’t know why, its not that i didn’t try to forget her I just cant whenever a girls approach me i just can’t look at that girl or in fact any girl. in my whole life i didn’t touch any girl, in fact i didn’t touch her bcz i didn’t love her for her body it was nothing for us.

frankly saying i tried to contact her in b/w { almost 3yrs ago }she seems different person now, last time when i texted her from one of my friends a/c she said i don’t know u, i have nothing to do with me, leave me alone, you are a liar and disrespected me very badly, she said doesn’t want to see me n ol, don’t know why she said that but from that day i didn’t contacted her, i respect her decision, she doesn’t want me its ok, but plz someone give me solution how to forget her, I don’t know what to do i am tired man, i dont know what to do i am 26 i am CS i don’t know where i am going, i just work, study ,work ,study and about 20-25 girls contacted me b/w till now but i broke their heart also and i m sorry for that i feel guilty for that , but what can i do … fuuuuccckkkkkkkkkkkkkk why cant i fucking change

So what is your view towards carnal desires in a relationship? My gf has been a bit emotionally distant with me for the last few weeks. So when I met her this week, I had some level of physical contact with her. Though her body responded, I felt that she was psychologically distant. And today when I wanted to hug her, she did not want to. I felt like I was pushing her too much. I called her after reaching home and she responded really harshly. That she said all the guys are touchy and can't stay normal. she had been in a relationship before being with me(for 7 years) and currently she is cheating with me and also hiding a lot from me.   I can sense that even though she says she loves me and all, she might not be attracted toward me anymore - both emotionally and carnally. I am highly confused because I am not after a woman's body only. I want to build a stable relation with her which I have been trying to establish for the last 7 years. Did we have close moments? Yes, we did. And back then she was not so rude or taken aback by my touch. Can it be that as she is not interested in me, that is why she does not like my touching of her anymore?
I am going through a lot actually. And now this, I do not know what to do or say. Because I am not loving her only to be intimate with her. I do love her. And the painful fact is that recently all she finds me is problems and problems. I am afraid to give up on our love and then again, with each passing day it is becoming hard to keep hope in this relationship. 

Insecurity

I was in a relationship. After 4 years, things were not working so we broke up. But we were continuously in touch and we got back in less than 2 months.
After couple of years, similar things happened again. She tried her best do that things won't fall apart but I broke up with her.
Now, even after 2 years, i am not able to move on.
I don't know what to do and how to approach things. Any suggestions

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