Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So it happens like when you think other person would never do such a particular thing and they do exactly the same thing, it breaks you part. He came into my life when I was least thinking that I needed love to complete my life. He came in my life and loved that feeling of having that one special person in the life. I am a true believer of love. We came close, shared special moments , I used to wake up thinking of seeing him, we work together, we used to walk back home together (my fav part of the day) until he decided he does not wan to talk to me. From that day till date I have been facing sleepless nights, I am an introvert person I usually don’t like to be around people that much, but now I spend most of the time with people who aren’t my close friends, just to avoid any time I can get with myself. I never believed in online dating, but went on dates with random people. I cry randomly, usually I go to bed crying. This is not me I was a very optimistic person, but he has changed me I am doing things which I never believed in. And I don’t know how to get myself back. I loved him so much, I am stuck with the memories I had with him. I thought a closure might help me that why he did what he did, but now I think what good can closure do, he will not say or do anything what would give me some relief. If he wanted me in his life he could not have let this happen. And the worst part is I have to see him everyday and he pretends as if there was nothing between us ever. That kills me.