Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So I was this heartwarming show and the protagonist who has suffered a lot of toxicity by his previous boyfriend, ends up with a psychological problem. He then further, leaves that toxic boy and was able to find someone who really cares for him and loves him for who is he. His new boyfriend is not annoyed by his constant want to be sure of everything. I just kept thinking how lucky the protagonist is to find someone like his new boyfriend (well technically his life partner 😉) who takes him in sickness and health and is so open for towards his love for him
You know I completely blame the show for raising my standards for love. On a bit more serious note, I can’t help but feel so weird and alone. My sister has had boyfriend for 7 years, my crush has a girlfriend, my way older crush has a girlfriend and is living his best life in New York, my much previous crush has a girlfriend too, and all that.
I just can’t help but think that, don’t we all deserve good things?
I have had very rough couple of years and I just can’t help but spit at my luck. It has not been going well - personal, social, emotional, professional, health, money wise
I don’t know, I guess this is just the way I feel