So i very calm guy, i doesn't get anger easily so last month due to some reasons my bestfriend and one of my friend (she was quite close to me) had an argument and i was not taking anyone's side at that moment so after this i was just a little bit rude to her coz(it's a long story) we have to go for a clg trip my bsf was not coming I talked with her parents and made her to come and a day ago trip this happened so the whole pressure was on me kyuki i made her to come, now that friend came to me ki why are you rude to me bcoz of her i told her literally 5 times don't talk now I am not in a chill phase things will went wrong but she is keep coming and i said many things to her and we are not talking from last month but I feel void without her should I go and sort everything?? With her 
One of my common friend asked her what if Me comes for a closure she said I don't want to talk with him but in the start she was crying coz she thought she lossed me but now idk what to do 🙂

Ikr but i told her to go coz i know it could be happen bcoz I don't usually lost my cool it was roughly after 4.5 years i lost my cool.
That's why I wanted to talk with her idk it would be a good idea or not.

Friends

hey, 
so i have a friends and we've been friends for a very long time like more than ten years. 
and one day she texted me and she was complaining about her parents so i told her that her parents were right and she got pissed and said i dont ever support her i mean  i obviously dont want anything bad for her right and we did not talk for a little more than a week and when i tried texting her she didnt reply she came online a few times after i texted her but she did not reply. so basically i sent her a message on snapchat but she did not reply and all she sent me was a snap to maintain the streaks and it makes me feel horrible. i feel like im not a good friend and shes like my best friend and it just makes me angry and sad. 
idek what to do now cause i only have 2 goos friends and i really dont want to lose her
i mean i put the efforts and initiated the conversation but seems like she doesnt even care anymore.

I'm Quite confused and making myself feel even worst. 

Online bestfriend. So we always got along and we always Facetime and message eachother every morning and night letting eachother know were around and stuff. 

But Recently she brought up that she has exams coming up and we can not hang out after all the assignments and exams are finished.

Here is the thing that is making myself feeling confused and starting to make me feel anxious and depressed.

She goes on a mmo i go on once and a while and i do see her on all the time and always being active. Seeing her change channels and all meaning shes active and jumping to different things to grind. 

Have i done something to make her lose interest in me? have i upset her? have i annoyed her? 

She has been honestly the greatest person to have helped me with my depression and all the stress that i have as a young adult. Work and bills due to covid and stuff. Shes always been there when i rant and shared her my secrets and how i feel about being a kid who parents have abandoned me. I was there for her aswell when she lost her bestfriend i was there talking to her and make her feel better.

But after she brought up exams and me seeing her online it has really affected me. I know i should probably let her be and have all the time with her but me probably overthinking that she just lied to me and stuff. But honestly if it comes down to this horrible fact i would move on and be down for quite awhile. Just need someone to talk to and give me some guidance. Thanks in advance.~

Overthinking

How to fight anxiety disorder? I tried to encounter my anxiety by engaging a lot of program, but i think it cause me become worsen. I’m scared, every second I’m scared, I always disappointed with myself, I also did wrong even thought i know its wrong because I’m too scared. I cause troubled because I’m too scared. I can’t make friend because I’m socially awkward and scared. My only friend didn’t understand and once said “why you scared, i dont understand” and its hurt my feeling because she said she didn’t understand while shes been friend with me for more than 5 years. She’s the opposite of me, so whenever she tells something, sometimes i just felt she accidentally makes me overthink. 

Anxiety

My friendship with my best friend is falling apart and i am hurting so bad. I can't take it anymore. :'(

i have this friedns,supposedly my best friend,.we used to go fro dinner together,we have shared memories,shared things about life,had each others back during the exam time n all.?1
after my college started she started behaving weird.i mean she prefers the company of my other frnd,I mean she like that girl more than me,so may be its obvious,.but I don't care about that..what hurts is,she was talking about some hot topic in he rlife,and when I asked what it was she blatantly told on my face that she isn't ready to share it with any one than to my other friend..!that's really hurtful when u have to hear such things from ur so called bestfriends,
that just affected me so very much..and after that I've just been bby myself not gone w my friends..
i started traeting myself bad,feeling lonely and bad most of time..
idk how to tackle it and how to practise self love..there is so many things happening in my life that my mind is all over the place..!!!

So I am in college.....being alone hurts a lot...I have no friends whom I can rely on....I always manage everything on my own but this time it's something that is hurting....One of my classmates is growing super toxic for me. She is the one I spent in the 1st month of my college life, which has given me a lot of trauma....I am not able to connect with anyone in my class because of her... It is so traumatic I am not able to make friends and I developed social anxiety....She is still in my life for the past 6 months, I tried to cut her off from my life many times but still she shows up every time....she comments on the dress I wear....she wants to make sure that everyone in my class gets to know that I am dumb....She wants all the attention and she really makes me feel so bad....I want to handle this matter maturely by talking to her about this but she is so immature that I know how she will handle this....And I don't want to make her against me as well....not by the fact that she got so many people to support her....but I choose not to waste my energy on her....We will be classmates for the next 3 years so that's the reason as well....

College

I'm feeling much better compared to the last few days. My bestfriend and I had an ugly fight which really harmed my mental health. I'm currently engaged and my fiancé is trying his best to cheer me up all the time but when I'm alone, all of this strikes me again. I want to share this story with all of you because I want advices from those who do not know me and who will post an unbiased opinion. So here, I go; we've been friends since 2010 and grew much more closer and became best friends in 2014. She was my soul sister, my bestfriend whom i never thought would ever betray me in such a way where it will be so hard to heal myself from this. My other close friend again rejoined our group in april 2020 during covid, despite the fact that she is not trustworthy because of her habits of being strayed away everything. My bestfriend and I thought that it would be good to have her back. This was the root cause of the entire problem. My close friend started dating a divorcee with a kid who is more than 10 years older than her. She has a history of dating older men who abused her and even backmailed her with her nude pictures. I tried to put sense in her that she should not take any decision in hurry. Even her parents do not approve of that man. He has a history of being someone who consume drugs(as per rumours). My bestfriend, I don't know since when she started to grow all these negativities towards me. She knew that i did not approve of that man but still she went out with them without even telling me, i felt betrayed. I confronted her about this and everything was resolved until that man sent me messages where my bestfriend is saying things that i have had never imagined in my entire life. She said that I'm a dominating person, I'm broke. I control my fiancé, I cannot see anyone happy. I said his boyfriend names which i did and i am not ashamed of it. He did things where i felt that i should be honest with my bestfriend about his toxic behaviour. It's been 4 months but i have still not gone over it. Everyday I think that perhaps It's me who is never good enough or perhaps they do not deserve my friendship. I have always been honest with my friends and told them whatever i feel. The fact that my bestfriend bitched about me with someone else, is still troubling me. She always uploads status on insta n fb about me, telling the world that I'm not a good friend etc. I have never posted anything about this friendship breakup online and i guess i will never do that also. I do not even know if anyone will read this and reply me.

Lonely

It's my best friend's birthday, i wished her half an hour ago. She has always been suicidal and talks about how she just wanna die before her birthday or things like that. I'm really worried of her right now, I'm trying not to think negative but I'm really scared, ik this absolutely had nothing to do with y'all but I'm just really scared and don't know what to do. I tried calling her but she isn't picking up. 

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