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Anonymous

So I know what I’m gonna say is not ok but anyway, ever since I was young (probably 8 or 10 I’m not sure) I kept having small hallucinations about death and just so you know those hallucinations appear without a specific reason and I can’t control them. Like, it doesn’t matter where I am, all I see for a few seconds is a lot of dead people on the floor/ground and a lot of blood literally everywhere, sometimes I only see 1 dead/mutilated person, also sometimes I’m seeing myself dead staring at a wall or at something else. I have always knew those aren’t real and I’m just imagining or hallucinating, but the bad part is not this, the bad part is that I was never scared of those things, no, it actually makes me feel calm, satisfied for some weird reason and yes I know it’s completely wrong to feel like that but I can not feel in another way.
Btw i know I will never ever kill someone, I know I will never give up on my future for something as stupid killing someone, and I know I will never ever end someone’s life just for my own satisfaction/pleasure. I only wrote this cause I wanted to share this and who knows maybe one of you knows how to help me to become more “normal”

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Wadapaav @therealwadapaav

Wanna connect?

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Anonymous

Idk man, I’m not really in the mood for socializing honestly =/

Wadapaav @therealwadapaav

No issues. I had a few similar experiences when I was a kid. Being a lonely person since a star really affects you somewhere. My nightmares still haunt me and I haven’t spoken about it to anyone. Ik for a fact how worse they can get and it went to a point I started abusing drugs. I am glad I came out of it and that finally they are over. I wish the same for u

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Anonymous

I’m glad to hear that you’re better now. Honestly I started smoking and drinking a little thinking that it might help which it does but not that much=/, and those things made more bad than good so I kinda took a break from them, but hopefully I’ll get over everything soon enough

Wadapaav @therealwadapaav

Can I ask you something if you don’t mind? You don’t have to answer if you feel it makes you uncomfortable. Was there any incident deep inside your mind fixed up when you were a kid? A suppressed memory of the dead or something you watched as a kid which is haunting you?

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Anonymous

No, there is nothing like that. My guesses were always those: my biological father did drugs when he made me and that’s a problem, my step dad taught me to beat anyone who annoyed me no matter the consequences also it might be the fact that I started self harming almost at the same age I started having those hallucinations

Wadapaav @therealwadapaav

What is the situation currently with you? Do u still suffer from this kind of treatment from your family?

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Anonymous

Well yeah I still do

Wadapaav @therealwadapaav

Are you an adult?

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Anonymous

Kinda, yes and no, I’m 20

Wadapaav @therealwadapaav

Is it okay for you to talk here. I would prefer to connect rather than everyone else seeing this. That’s all.

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Anonymous

I’m gonna go at a psychiatrist or something like that cause they can help me, and I actually tried to talk with someone I trusted about this and I felt so judged and they told me I should seriously stop talking about it cause it’s scaring them, that was my ex

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Anonymous

https://www.quora.com/What-do-murderous-thoughts-mean-I-have-hallucinations-of-me-killing-people-where-they-stand

So this is the link of an answer from quora. Please read the first answer given by Lisa(the last part might be relatable to you about visual hallucination).

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