So i keep breaking hearts, and the last one cost me a very good friend, that has me feeling very sad an d bad about myself even though its not my fault. I just wish i could be good friends with someone, specially a guy, without them wanting more, i just want to be liked by who i am and not be tied to anyone. 
Hope i can get that some day 

Purab Mallick

Naruto

:) same here dear... 

I lost someone today too... and i am tired ..tired of breaking things by my own


thats what i want with a guy....to have no condition.. to be actually in love ... love doesnt come with a condition then why guys put it....to talk with someone in which you feel free and safe is blisss ....

Exactly, makes me look like I betrayed somtjing when i was clear from the start, i want an understanding not a contract, they just keep clinging on to you and it drowns me

Breakup

How does it feels to imagine that you are going to die someday? 

3am Thoughts

I wanna talk to someone

Acquaintance

I really want to harm myself right now. There's no end to this misery. Why does, always, my faith get tested in everything I believe in? 
Is it my fault that I care way too much about my career and future? I just want the best to happen, but somehow that's way out of reach. I feel sick and tired. I feel frustrated. I feel...numb. Kind of. I want to harm myself. I don't know what's holding me back. Maybe it's fear. The fear of what others will think of me (gosh 😔) . 
I've had enough. Just enough. I hate it. I hate myself, my decisions, my life and me as a person. 

Self Harm

I know i have gone through some heavy stuff in my life , i don't even know how i am alive and my suicidaI tendencies are gone , i am better . But now i make dark and dank jokes as a mechanism and now it's even harder to make friends in this world. Why don't people be my friends or atleast treat me the same as i treat them . Do i have something that makes me unlikable in this world ?

How was your day?! Oh hey btw 

Teenagers

Late night cravings. Nothing to order, nothing to cook 

I wanted to share it with someone from a long time so just putting it here.

We were friends from college (4+ years) after sometime we expressed feelings for each other and started dating.

After we started dating couple of days later she was like it won't work out because her family will not allow it but still we continued dating secretly (very few people knew about our dating thing)

We dated for almost 2 years, then one day she told me her parents have fixed her marriage with someone else and she can't refuse due to some reasons.

We mutually agreed to part our ways but I was devestated/depressed during this time (before her marriage) we were used to talk and there was some friction in our friendship/relationship we talked some stuff to eachother (we cried) that we shouldn't but it happened due to the circumstances. 

Later she got married, moved on but sometimes she used message me to check on me. This used to annoy me because I was not completely moved on so I used to keep our conversation short and after that I started avoiding her.

For 8-9 months I was in bad state of mind but gradually I started progressing in my career, achieved some great things.

But still sometimes when I'm free at night those memories come up and I can't sleep for 30-40 minutes. I wonder why it became my weak point that it still haunts me for couple of minutes.

Also all my friends are planning for reunion and I'm not sure if I will attend it only reason that she will be there.

Let me know what you think guys, what should I do different? Open for all kind of feedback.

Anxiety

After i joined this app, i read and witness, so much people with same problems as me but with different situation. It makes me really want to comfort u guys because i knew how much it hurts. But pleaseee remember and always remember, we are greater than we thought, we are more capable than we thought, we are loved that we thought and we are stronger than we thought, 🤍

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