So I have been going through a really tough time, I thought once I start working, my mom would change, she has this very bad habit of shouting and getting upset at trivial things, it feels wrong to say bad things about her because she has gone through a lot of physical and mental abuse, I understand why she reacts that way but that doesn’t mean she keeps shouting at everyone at home. I’m kinda suicidal and I blurted that to my friend and now he’s upset that I said that I want to die, I mean now I can’t even say that I want to die🥴 and he thinks it’s all my fault and made me feel like shit about saying that I want to die but I’m really fed up of everything, I just can’t deal with this anymore and I don’t think she’s gonna change, I’m honestly so tired of all this toxic environment at my house and I don’t want to move out either, I literally cry almost everyday, people go back to their house after work to rest and I don’t feel like going back home at all
Narinder @narinder1095
Life is precious and problems, well buddy everyone is facing one or another right now . I am two going through stuff maybe not as harsh as urs but trust no human life exist without problems.
Suppose u go ahead and throw away your life just answer me after you are gone will all things at ur home will change for better ? I mean will your mom will talk calmly or that upset friend of yours will be again in good mood ? U know the answer is No and worst part is you won’t be able to do anything about it because as u can imagine you are dead !!
Sometimes in life we have to go through such tough situations that life loses its value and death seems an appropriate answer . Trust me you can handle any situation if you keep urself calm and straight headed . You cab bear much more than you can imagine .Right now you are frustrated and feel no self worth but you have to realize that you can’t let situations or people decide. Hold on , take a breather because things are going to change sooner than later . Nothing is permanent in this world - neither people nor situations. Things will change for good . And when all this is over and you will come out a different , grown person just as caterpillar changes into butterfly !!
So hang on mate .
Few things that i would suggest is go for spirituality- u will find tremendous relief in spirituality. And read some good books or maybe scriptures . They will certainly give u strength and positivity to handle everything.
Secondly, try to get professional help or atleast connect with people with whom u can pour ur heart out .
Dont throw your life away it won’t solve anything. Everything ur going through will pass .
Alex @deceivedayp
try and find a nontoxic enivornment, whether that be online or in real life
I have a similar situation as you. My mom has been through so much since her childhood I don’t wanna say anything to her but sometimes she gets too much. She gets angry real fast and when she’s angry, she says thing that hurt too much. Sometimes she loves me very much but sometimes things get out of hand. I love her too. To others it may seem a normal thing or we’re exaggerating but it really gets heavy sometimes. Now I don’t even feel anything when she says hurtful things.
