Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So I finally said it…
I told my boy best friend how much I like him and I also said I don’t expect anything from his side though. He replied I’m more than any girlfriend to him. And I deserve someone better… I’m very important to him and all that
WE DIDN’T TALK FOR 2DAYS
today he texted if we can talk…cause tomorrow he’s leaving for hostel
Then he called
Asked me how I started liking him
And when I said from two months
Then he asked something that broke my heart…he asked if I was talking to him just because I like him not because we are best friends!!! Like wow… obviously you are my besty because of that.not because I’m an asshole acting all good just because I like or I wanted to be in a relationship with him…
I said I didn’t expect anything from his side…he asked if I actually liked him I would have wanted to get his girlfriend or something…
I asked if he never had a little bit of feelings for me…he said nah never not even for a sec. .he just said that bluntly and says he didn’t mean to hurt me…
But tears were rolling down my cheeks already still I managed to laugh without revealing those tears and emotions.
Then when we both became silent he says we will growing distant this is the first stage… he’s already giving up
His actions doesn’t match his words
He says he don’t have anyone to talk to anymore because I did this like what…I just confessed please don’t say it like that
Now I feel like a piece of a trash this is hurting like shit even if I say I’m fine
I know it’s my fault to like you I messed up