So I don’t know how to tell this…I’m a 19 yo bi curious guy from bangalore…I have been in constant conflict with my own mind for almost a year now. Today I finally got the courage to go meet a guy I matched today on tinder…I know I shouldn’t have . He invited me to his place and I went like an idiot.Even though it was pretty far from my place I still went there.I hate myself for going .The person looked very much different from his pictures.He closed the door and started doing things which I did not consent for.So he started biting me.I told him several times that I am not into it. I literally begged him to stop and then he abused me sexually .I never even imagined that this could happen to me.I tried my best to escape and I quickly did.Now I am in extreme pain.I hate myself so much. I have never felt this terrible. I came back home immediately from his place. I don’t know what to do. I have reported the person on the app. I can’t tell my parents about this .I don’t know how to handle this without telling my parents. Right now it is the worst situation to tell them this.I cannot talk to anyone about this. My friends think I am straight and I was trying to explore my sexuality.I hate myself for letting this happen to me.I feel extremely hurt both mentally and physically.I do want him to be punished but I cannot let people know about this especially my parents.I feel like wanting to kill myself .I won’t harm myself but I feel like sinking.I feel frustrated ,angry ,hate myself, I can’t even cry.I feel mixed emotions and heart heavy.I don’t know how to approach a therapist or the police without letting my parents know.I want to tell this to them but I cannot tell anything right now.I want to report this but I can’t gather the courage to.Acctually I don’t even know if I want to do anything at all.I cannot deal with any of this. I tried to sleep I could not .I feel so much a and also feel numb at the same time.I just don’t know anything now
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